Tuesday, January 08, 2013
So my week #1 went very good. I kept my spirits up and every moment I thought, how can I do better. I sought 30 min in a day and I did find them. I missed a couple but did not dwell on it. I did well with my diet too. If I craved little sugar rush, I did have a tiny bite of sweet stuff but did not binge.
Most of all I have to say that it was because I so do not want to complain anymore. I just want to do things. I am just tired of complaining. I just want to keep moving even if my today was not the best.
I also did well with my relationships. I went to the hospital 3-4 times to see my sister-in-law. I did tell her that I would like for her to get better because my kids so need their aunt in their life. I told her that I am ready for a new relationship. I am sure my husband felt better with me talking to his sister. I still have not faced my mother-in-law yet but I am ready to face her too. I am not going to hide in the closet anymore. You know, part of me was so afraid to see people because I was afraid that they would tell me that I gained so much weight. But no one told me that and so I feel much better now. I feel slightly free in my heart. This was a big burden on my shoulders, as stupid as it may sound. I feel I can be anywhere, in front of anyone while still focusing on my goal of weight loss.
I have a wedding june 23rd of this year in Canada to attend. My husband's cousin visited from Canada to tell me that I have to go to their son's wedding. And that they want me to be there as a family. I first thought that I would not go as I would have to face all my in-law family but then I thought I must go as this would be the time when I can really bridge the gaps together. I just want my distance but I want to be a part of their life. I think with the distance of 2 yrs they also have learned to give me my space.
I have lots of work to do. I have 22 weeks to this occasion and I want to look good. I meant sharp and toned. I do not look bad now either.
Not only I motivated myself but I am also pushing my sister who just joined Sparkpeole. I am hoping that I could help motivate her to exercie and watch what she eats,. Other peoles exercise regimen motivates me a lot. I look at other people exercise log to tell myself that I need to work harder and push myself more. And I so lover to get people motivated as it gives me a satisfaction that i could help someone.
SO my friends if you want to help me or even be a partner in my struggle, please join me on the january exercie log, I soooo want more people to join and do this fitness quest together.