Tuesday, January 08, 2013
The last blog I wrote wasn't actually day 1 because I haven't done any exercises since then. I actually started again today, so this is my new DAY 1!
It's so easy to fall back to all the old habits. Eating anything I want and as much as I want and not exercising and criticising myself all the time! I am my own worst enemy but I think you all know exactly what I mean because for us, who are emotional eaters, food is always the "fall-back" that we reach for when things get tough.
Since I've been a member of SP I've learned so much about myself and the reasons I'm overweight. I've never thought about why I was doing the things I do, I just did them because they were familiar and they made me feel better.
Now, I'm actually starting to think about why I eat... Why food makes me feel better... Why I'm the only one in my family with an eating-disorder...
I've never admitted it to myself before Sparkpeople. Now I know that it's true and I want to do something about it!
Today, I've started again and I know that I'll probably have other times when I'll have to start over again, but I'm going to do it! I know that, with God's help, there is nothing that I can't do!!