Tuesday, January 08, 2013
Yay, another good day. Came "home" (I stay at my brother's house Mondays because I have acupuncture Tuesday mornings) with only 4,700 steps...went for a long walk and got myself up to almost 12,000! Yay, me :)
Well, it seems more and more people in my life are either pregnant or "announcing" to me that they're going to start trying. My brother, of all people. Funny how people change their minds when their friends start having kids. He said he feels bad because they'll probably get pregnant before me. He also says I need to see a therapist because the way I am about pregnancy is unhealthy. But I hate how people keep writing me off...nobody says "it'll happen!"...everybody talks adoption. What??? I would love to adopt, but I'd also like to have one biological kid. We haven't even tried IUI or IVF or any fertility help other than acupuncture and herbs! Why do people try to console me? I've gotten pregnant and I miscarried. A lot of women miscarry their first. I haven't gotten pregnant in the last 16 months because for 10 of those months I was in school and barely home, barely ovulating due to stress and overall unhealthy. I only started acupuncture 4 cycles ago. I've been diagnosed with a number of conditions that contribute to difficulty getting pregnant, all of which are treatable. I'll get there. I just wish people would stop looking at me like I'm infertile and feeling bad for me. I'm not infertile. I will have a baby, and when that baby arrives, I will be glad for the struggles because they will have lead me to the most precious baby in the world!