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Hmmmm, I'm forgetting something

Monday, January 07, 2013

You know how you sometimes sit on a date and know that it means something but can't quite remember? That's how I've been feeling all week about January 5th. I know it must mean something but what?

It finally came to me this afternoon as I was thinking about last night's Biggest Loser premiere and trying to decide if I wanted to watch it or not. All of a sudden I remembered...

January 5, 2004 is the date I decided to get healthy once and for all. Sitting at 221lbs and staring down 44 at my next birthday and knowing that I was miserably and traumatically unhappy - that was the day it all stopped.

It took me 5 years to lose 85 lbs. 5 years to figure out who I was and that I was an important enough to myself to take care of myself. 5 years of making a decision every friggin' day to eat well, exercise and love myself. 5 years to learn how to move again - how to breathe through asthmatic lungs; how to run on arthritic joints; how to heal myself and love the strong, resilient woman that I am.

And now it's been 9 years in total - getting up every single day and pledging to take care of myself by doing what's right for my body, spirit and mind. Making permanent changes to my diet and embracing a healthy, active lifestyle. 9 years! After a whole lifetime of fighting my weight and failing on every level, 9 years have passed since that first day when I said "that's it".

Along the way I've had the highest highs: running a 4h 30 min marathon; watching my husband shed 70 lbs and get his life in order; returning to my passion of backpacking and canoe tripping. I've changed so many things! Moving from a rural acreage to an urban condo; leaving nursing and management behind to make a major career shift in the middle of a recession; subtracting negative and unhappy relationships - healing and celebrating those worth saving. It's been a wonderful, wild ride.

I can hardly remember what it felt like to be 221lb. I actually don't remember being unable to bend over to tie my shoes. I am so unbelievably fit and so profoundly who I am meant to be that it doesn't matter who I used to be. I am who I am meant to be now.

9 years. I can't imagine that it's been 9 years. And it doesn't even matter. 9 months or 9 years - it's all just one day at a time in the end.

Steven and I celebrating Christmas 2012 with a 3 hour bike ride on the beach at Hilton Head. Life is very, very good.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
CHANGE4THEBEST 2/3/2013 4:12AM


Thank you for sharing your blog.

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1TOBFIT 1/15/2013 9:51AM

    So happy to see you again my always inspiring, always honest, always motivating friend !
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AMSPARKER 1/8/2013 6:17AM

    So nice to hear from you and to find out about your updates! Happy all is well with you

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MRS.DOYLE 1/8/2013 4:59AM

    Great blog and very inspiring. I agree that it is a daily one step at a time. That's the way I do it as well.

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BLUE42DOWN 1/8/2013 3:46AM

    How emoticon

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KELPIE57 1/8/2013 2:44AM


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SBHPATRICK 1/7/2013 10:19PM

    What a wonderful, inspiring blog! Congratulations on your well-earned health and happiness!

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MNNICE 1/7/2013 10:09PM

    Congratulations for your success and sticking with it. I've been at it about the same amount of time, and it certainly is a daily effort that never ends -- but SO much worth it!

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JUSTYNA7 1/7/2013 9:57PM

    Funny how dates creep up on us. Funny how we get "used" to the new us. Funny how life become good and we just accept it and forget how hard it was to get there. Yet here you are. Good to remember where you came from and the remarkable journey that brought you to this place of happiness. I am so very proud of you. Justyna

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UMBILICAL 1/7/2013 9:53PM

  Ok, just enjoy today's memories

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