I just realized...
Monday, January 07, 2013
Somehow, I have fallen off the proverbial wagon.
I haven't binged or anything like that, but I have blown up all, or most, of my good habits.
I got my first bout of some sort of chest cold a couple days after my birthday in November and just as I was getting over it, it came back with a vengeance. Since I was sick, I slacked up on all my exercising, slacking up may be too easy of a term for it....I stopped all together, I only made a couple halfassed attempts for the entire month of December to get out there and walk. Not a big deal since breathing was so difficult, but I also slacked off on eating healthy things.
My portion control has been...ok, not great, but its alright....but I have fallen into a habit of seeing how much junk I can eat and still maintain my weight.
I don't know if its wanting comfort foods because I am sick, or wanting comfort foods because the weather is cold, or just the insistence that I am 'not on a diet', that I can have whatever I want 'within reason', or what...maybe its a combination of those or just a lack of willpower. I do feel limited in fresh veggies/fruit since there is so much out of season...I am even having a hard time liking the flavor of grapes in winter, and I LOVE grapes, they just don't taste as good.
I DO know that my enthusiasm is a lot dimmer than it was when I started. Its no ones fault, but my cheerleading section has faded away. Its just human nature I guess, you cheer someone on and when they continue doing the same thing, you cheer less and less because nothing new is happening.
In my case it was getting off my duff = LOTS of cheers!
Walking for my first 20 minutes = LOTS of cheers!
Making a mile, then 5k = more and more cheers!
Another 5k...a few less cheers
Yet another 5k...good for you for sticking to it...
Oh look...she is out and about....Yawn...
Guess what...same old same.
Please don't get me wrong, this isn't pointed at anyone here, y'all are great....its my 3D life that has changed. And its not just other people in my life, its me too. I am having a hard time being enthusiastic about my lack of progress.
I AM doing good on getting fruits and veggies into my diet, but its way more fruits than veggies, and I have let suppers go to either one pot meals that cook for hours on end (my brain thinks that overcooked veggies aren't nutritional), or a protein and a carb...no veggies at all, fresh or otherwise.
Am I glad that I am able to maintain my weight instead of gaining? I guess so...but I would be happier if I were still losing.
Today is the first day that I pull my butt out of the rut that I have found myself in.
This evening was a 2 mile walk and I ended with a 19'04 pace time. I felt pretty good while I was out there and even remembered to charge my phone so I had music while I was out...my beau went with me and didn't listen to his music, so I made sure to sing to him, haha!
I am going to work on what I eat also...I miss the way my tummy feels when its not bloated. The only way I can describe it is that my belly button feels like its trying to hug my backbone. Its a good feeling and I miss it.
Today is the first day.
I. Will. Not. Quit.