January 7th, 2013, Monday, 84 days left until 1st goal post! 12 weeks left!
Just got to keep on Keeping on.... Last week was ALMOST a good week until my brother in law passed from pancreas cancer only in his 50's ... Had a good week but a not so good weekend ate heavy the last couple days of the week I guess a heavy heart gave me a free ticket to eat but not really I feel as if I just didn't care and it showed. Lots of sadness lots of tears lots treats . of but as JOE DIRT says "Just got to keep on keeping on!" I Detoxified Sunday and back on the low carbn pink on the stick ....
January 8th, Tuesday 83 days left until 1st goal post!
Well today decided best get some of the "BEFORE SHOTS" so by the 1st goal post I can look back and go dang!! Well nothing makes you think "ICK" like looking at the photos of letting in all hang out and wonder "Where did I go" who the heck is this person looking back at me.
Why do I see other over weight people and think how they are pretty, beautiful and then see myself and think thoughts of such negativity that I can not even repeat the thoughts in this blog, then I have to think STOP!! Please be kind and rewind change that negative back to a positive. I really see no reason to be so hard on myself when I am just overweight, may not look like I did in high school. Where even at my skinniest I thought I was fat?? When and where and Why did that thought ever come into my head??
I am letting the fat flow off this body because it's time. I no longer need to be wrapped in some type of self hate! I am a good worthy human being who is doing the best I can each and every day on this earth. I make people smile, laugh and I am there for others when they need me, I have great compassion, love and integrity.
I have decided I am now going to be here for Me. Because I count too!! So with those thoughts in mind I look at pictures of my self give myself a warm hug from the inside out and know the battle is over no more fighting me. I will spend time on me every day 3o minutes minimum of some type of exercise is 2% of my day and is a very small gift I give to myself.
Anyways I melted off 8 pounds since last weigh in and dang only 8 more 8 pound losses and I will be .... 64 pounds lighter then where I am at now!! Yeah for Me!!! Great Job Valerie!!
January 9th, Wednesday, 82 days left until 1st goal post!
Some days all is right with the world and one stupid comment by another maybe being said will no ill intentions can crush your spirit, bring you instantly down, and make you feel totally unimportant as a piece of dirt on the bottom of there shoe.
A smile turns to a frown and all the bad negative low self-esteem issues that you have about yourself come flooding into your thoughts like a wave and along with every single bad thing you have ever thought or said about yourself is highlighted and just for a moment your eyes water and a tear come out of your eye for no other reason then one person, one comment, on moment of weakness brings you crashing down.
So what do you do you pick yourself up brush it off take some deep breaths from your diaphragm, smile and keep on keeping... Heck yeah... Because this year is all about me and what I am, is accepting myself just as I am. Just working on making me stronger & healthier. =)
January 10th, Thursday, 81 days left until 1st goal post!
To much wok To little sleep -
January 11th, Friday, 80 days left until 1st goal post!
More work NO SLEEP
January 12th, Saturday, 79 days left until 1st goal post!
Slept in and out all day crappy not getting any sleep makes every thing fall out of sync but going to keep on keeping on left me little blogging time but entries of everything else still getting in. =)
January 13th, Sunday, 78 days left until 1st goal post!
Today Sunday noticed I have a smaller stomache not as hard and puffy as it was so things are changing.. Weekends appear to be my down fall and lazier days and hungrier days I'm thinking boardom and lack of ambition... I will be working on this so I can Keep on Keeping on!!! =O)