Monday, January 07, 2013
I'm not very good in utilizing all Sparkpeople.com has to offer. So these blogs are always so sporadic. It is a new year however, and I have declined greatly.
In the past 4 months I have just kind of let everything fall to the wayside. I am back up in fat gain by 15 lbs. It is not the weight that bothers me it is the fact that I hate looking at me again. I am depressed. I am tired. I am unmotivated.
(The picture at the start of this is practically back to where I am. boo!)
I keep looking back at all that I had accomplished 15 lbs ago. How active I was. How busy my life was. Most importantly how happy I was, almost constantly, and I realize - I WANT ALL OF THAT BACK AND MORE.
I want to find out what my true potential is. I want to know where I can take this body. I am getting to old to step backwards now. I MUST push on - so that I like me again.
So it is I have started this morning right. Planned a healthy menu for the month, tracking my food, drinking water, a hour workout in before work, taking the dog to training class, practicing my guitar, working on being brave singing, loving my man. This is the road to happiness ... I hope it leads somewhere tropical and I look luscious in my bikini when we get there!!!!