I am a medical sales rep for an independent company, with no benefits at all. I have had ups and downs with work, especially over the last two years. We lost a major line (due to a buyout) about a year and a half ago, but we were able to still keep a guarantee (minimum amount of pay, due to no benefits) and our gas card. Well, we got our gas card taken away in September last year and in November, they pulled our guarantee. Now I am on commission only. We were supposed to get paid on the 5th, which was this past Saturday. But, no check. I hope we are getting our checks today.

What I am finding is...I really dislike my job. My heart is not in it. It's getting harder and harder to wake up each morning to a job you dislike, and as time passes, that dislike grows and grows. What do I think I want to do? I have started writing, which I do enjoy! But, writing right now is not going to pay my bills.

I am worried if I made enough last month to cover my bills this month and am considering a second job at Starbucks or waitressing. The latter, I really don't want to do. At the same time, I am kinda thinking, maybe I should just find a 9-5p job without stress that will cover my bills and I can write at night and on the weekends?

And...I have looked at other jobs but I have a Masters in Business, which in this job market seems to be the kiss of death. I am "overqualified" for a lot of things, and "underqualified" for others because I don't have a particular, specific experience. I just don't get it....and I used to recruit. We always hired for competency and did well, even if the background of an individual was a bit varied. That apparently is not happening today.

The other glitch...I work for family and have already raided most of my 401k because I was not getting my paychecks on time. Feeling the stress...Am I going to be able to pay bills? Am I going to have to use the last of my 401k? Should I just bail and start looking for a non-stressful job in the mean time? Can I can do a traditional job again since it's been almost 6 years since I reported to an office each day? Not sure what to do, but know it needs to be something.

The one plus here...I haven't eaten my stress this morning! I wanted to, but realized it wasn't food I wanted, it was stress relief. Thanks for listening...