Monday, January 07, 2013
I joined SP last year in September knowing I needed something to help me pull myself together. I was sure if I found it I would succeed. At the time I didn't consider that I had been looking for a LONG time and hadn't found it yet. I was stuck in the I need to be accountable to something/someone but never believed enough in myself to be accountable to ME. So needless to say I did nothing but slide further into the pit until NOW :)
When I joined SP I made my page and wrote about guilt and feelings of inadequacy. Today I know that being fit, healthy, skinny .... is not goign to change that. I am choosing a different path today. I am choosing to nurture me - mind body and spirit. I am no longer waiting for someone to do it for me.
I am holding myself accountable for loving myself enough to reach for the things I want. I will acknowledge the negative thought demon in my head but I will not let those thoughts rule me. I will use accountability to help me succeed but never again will I think "no one will know" I WILL KNOW!!
Today is a new day, a better day and yesterday was pretty good so today is going to ROCK. I am off to do a SP video before I start my day because I will know if I slack off :)