Monday, January 07, 2013
Not so long ago, I used to feel resentful whenever I heard that someone I knew had lost weight. I used to think, bully for them, but I can't do that. I used to get upset, not at myself, because I thought it was impossible for me – but at them, for succeeding where I couldn't.
Now, part of the reason that I couldn't lose weight was because of an undiagnosed thyroid problem. But another part of why I couldn't lose weight, even after the thyroid problem was corrected, was that I just didn't have the right attitude. I didn't believe it was possible, and therefore, I couldn't. Because I didn't believe it was possible, I wasn't able to take the steps towards eating healthily, holding myself accountable, planning for exercise, and making it happen.
It's been about 45 days since I renewed my commitment to Spark. And I'm so pleased to say that it's really working this time! I still have many things to learn about what works best for my body, about how many calories I need in a day, about what type of exercise feels best to me and how that affects how much I need to eat… But on balance, I'm doing great. Even though I may have days like today where I go way over my calorie range (for no other reason than that I'm hungry), I'm still engaging in lots of healthy behaviors like tracking my food, exercising, and engaging with the Spark community. These things make me feel good, and that, in turn, helps me be successful. On the whole, I feel that I am being successful – and my mirrors, my clothes, and this scale proves that I indeed, I am.
And guess what? Now, when I hear that friends of mine are losing weight, working out, and feeling good about themselves, I don't feel resentful anymore. Instead, I feel thrilled for them! I view them as inspiration. I love hearing about their success, hearing how they accomplished it, and seeing if I can incorporate any of their thoughts into my own program.
So thank you, Spark, for making me not only a healthier person, but also a happier person – and a nicer person too.