Sunday, January 06, 2013
It's on... w/ 2013 ringing N... I've finally realized~ Life isn't about having the best of everything... it's more about making the most of everything U have. Which although I have carried that theory 4 many yrs... it's always been 2wards others & how I can help them, what I could do 2 make things better N a situation 4 them or how do I help them 2 handle what madness their life has thrown @ them. He, she, it, them, they, pronouns go on & on but they all have names... never fails that I'm "just okay" w/ putting myself on the back burner 2 assist someone else. Regardless of how bad I too need 2 "just talk"... "need a shoulder 2 lean upon" or "just an ear 2 vent" etc. I'm "ALWAYS THERE 4 EVERYONE ELSE" & yet never seem 2 find the time 4 ME!
Has now become my theory.... And although I will remain a dependable person 4 helping others during their time of need etc. I WILL NOT place myself upon the back burner again 4 ANYONE ELSE! Because although I carry titles mom, wife, daughter, BFF, mother~N~law, Granny, Nana, aunt, sister & MANY MORE.... There's ME N the pile just the same.... And I deserve some "can depend upon U" time as well. I want 2 really put ME 1st 4 a change when handling some matters that have a choice N saying NO so that I too may "just take care of MYSELF". So I TOO can enjoy life... so I too can breathe a sigh of relief knowing "it's gonna B okay".
Of putting ME 1st.... With making better feeding choices as well as exercising when the body permits it. I'm gonna start from this day 4ward... ensuring that I TOO am "a priority". I'm tired of being the by standard & watching ev1 else "LIVE" life 2 the fullest while I feel as though I'm merely "existing" day after day. At 43 yrs. old.. I'm gonna KNOW how 2 live & start pampering ME 4 a change & I think I'm gonna like it!
XOXXO ME 2 U