Sunday, January 06, 2013
I had to seriously think on this one. Do I binge eat ?
Binge eating is episodes of uncontrollable eating . As a fat bodied person most think I do this type of thing all the time after all that is how we get fat right. Well no that is not how I became a fat bodied person. I was taught early in life to control my emotions with food. I had the world greatest mother really. She believed that food could fix anything, it really is just a shame that she never realized that her way of fixing things was actually causing the problem. She never realized that there is really no comfort in food and it took me years to realize that it wasnt the food that brought me comfort. It was her need to make it better that brought comfort. Her dotting over me was made things better but that always came with a food attached. Do I binge eat ? hmm after a lot of thought on this question I think I have come up with the answer.
No I dont binge eat . Actually what happens is I have bouts of depression and anxiety . When these happen I stop eating all together ( i know the horror right a fat bodied person who doesnt eat ) . What happens is I wont eat till my system crashes and then I will eat some sugar thing like a candy bar or honey bun to bring it back up . Then i am alright for a while then another crash and the cycle repeats .. So then my body thinks I am starving it and it stores up all the bad stuff. Then I see the pounds creeping back up and feel guilty and so the process repeats again till finally I decide to do the right thing again .. I have gone days without eating and then eat as few as 100 calories . which is why I am a fat bodied person, your body needs a realm of things to survive and when you dont give it what it needs then your body will take what it has to survive. So do yourself a favor stop think and eat properly that is the most important key to success ..