Sunday, January 06, 2013
Here it is January 6th already...I don't know why it has taken me so long to write this blog! I spent New Year's Eve as I always do, thinking back on the past year and remembering both the good and bad, glad to put the year in the past, and looking for things to learn from what I experienced. 2012 started off pretty well with me feeling positive and working on various streaks of exercise and eating healthy. We also went on some nice RV vacations to Bar Harbor, Maine and Lake George, NY with friends, as well as several getaway weekends to more local campgrounds. But for a good part of the year, I had a lot of emotional upset, mainly due to my son's continued problems with addiction and lack of a job, and the sudden death of our dear friend, Gary at the end of May. We had big plans to go RVing together with him and his wife, Lisa in the summer and in future years, so those dreams died along with him. We spent most of the summer supporting Lisa in every possible way and rallying together with our mutual friends to cope with our loss. On top of all that we had the stress of getting our house ready to put up for sale, which happened in the beginning of September. Keeping everything perfect for showings but having no offers was disappointing, although we really don't want to sell till this spring.
As a result of all these challenges, I gradually went back to old habits of emotional eating, not exercising consistently, and gaining back 20 of the 30 pounds I had lost in a matter of several months! I got depressed and even stopped Sparking for a couple months, until I realized how much I missed my SparkFriends and how much I needed SP to get motivated to take care of myself again.
It has been a long road and the New Year has not brought the resolution to all of the problems, but it has made me realize that I cannot let these upsets that are out of my control, take over and cause me to not take care of my health and fitness. My dh and I have not felt completely happy in a long time, and I want that to turn around for us in 2013. We are hoping to sell our house, as I said, and I am planning on retiring from teaching after the school year ends. We moved our son out to his own apartment at the end of December, so it is up to him to become independent and find success and happiness. We will continue to love and support him, but we can't help him get better - he has to do that. The biggest thing we are looking forward to is becoming full-time RVers and traveling around the country starting this summer. Everything is very uncertain right now, which causes me to be a bit nervous about the whole thing, but it is an exciting future to us, so I hope and pray it will work out!
My goals for 2013 are very similar to what they were last year:
*find positive things to be grateful for each day
*try to live in the present - leave the past behind and do not dwell on the future, instead focus on what is happening at each moment
*eat mindfully and think of food as fuel, not for comfort or entertainment
*cut back on sugar and processed foods, eating more lean protein, whole grains and fresh fruits and veggies
*limit diet sodas and drink more water
*work on consistency by creating streaks in various areas: from taking my medication, eating 5 or more freggies, drinking 8+ glasses of water, getting in 10 or minutes of exercise each day, logging into SP and getting enough points to spin the Bonus wheel!
*use my fitbit each day, striving to get in 10,000 steps
*work on balancing my day between work and leisure activities
*gradually work on organizing all my school bins and classroom to get ready for retirement!
*journal and blog regularly to track my progress
*do yoga and meditate more consistently to help me relax and release stress, as well as practice quieting my mind and living consciously
*work on getting a better night's sleep!
*get involved with more of my SparkTeams and be a better motivator to SparkFriends
*get back down to a size 10 by the end of the year.
*be forgiving of myself if I have a bad day...just start over again and never give up!
*review my goals frequently, revise them if necessary and make more specific goals each month.
It seems like a lot, but this is the ideal for my life, and I want to strive to be my best, knowing that continuing to make steady progress is the most important thing...progress, not perfection!!!