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Right below the surface there is an answer (Blog #434)

Sunday, January 06, 2013

I have been struggling to figure out why I am not blogging, why I am not focusing on a daily commitment to exercise and water (water, water, water!!!) I've been this way all year... When I drive, it is on my mind. When I stop for a moment, it is on my mind. Why and how did I lose my focus? Why am I avoiding the blogging which seems to help me the most?

ARGH!!! I can feel the answer right below the surface... Am I going to just let myself finally say it? As soon as I say it... I can act. I think today is the day.

Here's the deal. I do like it when I am out and running or cycling. I do like it when I am dedicated to good water drinking. I do like it when I am focused on each meal's creativity and balance.
And here's the other deal: when I do not do those things, I actually make a choice not to do them. WHAT?! That just seems dang odd. To be frank, I really think it is about being lazy. I just get lazy. Yup. There. I said it. I am lazy. There's really nothing more to it. Nothing more complicated than that.

I have strengths that when I tap into them, I can really accomplish a lot. One strength: I can hyper focus! I actually love that about myself but there is a downside to this same strength. Often when I hyper focus, I lose steam. Then I turn around and see how much I expended in energy to meet a goal and I get lazy. I think I actually might eve be a bit scared that I can't expend that much energy again. Hmmm.

Now the trick will be to overcome this lazy streak and get back into a rhythm that I know does me good all the way around. Sometimes, I just want to chuckle and give myself a kick in the pants!!

"What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality." Plutarch

Tap into the strengths.


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    I can so relate to the hyper focus and losing steam. For me, I fear losing steam that I tend to give up rather than fail. As if there's any good logic in that emoticon
    So this time around, I'm trying to stick to smaller goals.
    1899 days ago
    I've never heard it put that way...hyper focus. Yep. I have that, too. It's one of my biggest strengths. I think the thing about blogging is, at least with me, I want to write when I have something "good" to say. It's kind of that...if you don't have something good to say, don't say anything...except it's if you don't have something good to blog, don't blog anything. But you're right, the blogging keeps us focused and moving forward. I think rather than calling it laziness...you could call it a break. That's what I am calling mine. emoticon But, I think the thing is, at least with me, that this is all a swim upstream...so when I take a break, the current takes me back in the direction from which I came...not really what I want. Granted, I get a chance to rest and regroup...but then I have to retread through waters I have already swam. So, anyway, when you are ready, reset your sights, set a worthy goal, and put the pedal to the metal. You can do it! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon emoticon
    1899 days ago
    I'm so there with you! Great blog.
    1899 days ago
    I can relate to this and could have written this same exact blog today about myself. To the letter. I need to focus on me.
    1900 days ago
    Here's the part of your description of being "lazy" that screamed out to me:

    "I think I actually might even be a bit scared that I can't expend that much energy again."

    Isn't that classic perfectionism? (And, believe me, it takes one to know one!)

    But what SP has taught me is that "just 10 minutes" of exercise is still really good. Maybe it would work for you on the days that you feel "lazy"?

    Just a thought....
    p.s. Beautiful mountain, as always!
    1901 days ago
    An object @ rest stays @ rest?
    I'm with you on the water - going to try to make it like breathing...
    1901 days ago
    Laziness is something can relate to. But also, for me at least, this past year was realizing that once again I slid into the false belief that I don't have to do anything other than exercise to maintain my weight loss.

    I know what I have to do. It takes ongoing, steady energy to keep on the path of doing what I need to do. One thing that has helped my attitude was to read several books the past year that delve into will power and habit...and how we expend energy and fall short of our daily commitments (and how to get around those failings, which aren't really failings so much as how human beings are wired to make tradeoffs/decisions). I also read about forming and keeping habits. It akes energy to "resist" and "work at" things. And after a while, we get tired. And we start off the day with good intentions and expend a lot of "energy" thinking about what we do instead of just doing things.
    So one way to counteract the use of energy is to make our decisions no brainers (no thinking involved). Another thing that will be key for me is be to be mindful and not expend all that negative mental energy. I plan on working at adopting habits/practices that don't take so much work to do the "right thing". One thing that will help me is to track what I am doing (rather than thinking about what I'm not doing that I want to do). Indeed, I have the physical fitness aspect nailed. It is just the eating and drinking water, like you, that I need to focus constructively on.

    1901 days ago
    OH I have missed you and your mountain! Beautiful pic. As one kids mum said, don't think you have to always do as well as or better than, just do.
    HUGS and hope you are back!!!
    1901 days ago
    I stopped calling myself "lazy" when burnout hits. That's what it really is: burnout. Maybe a tad "how do I top this, I had such a great year last year?" And of course, you've had some life transitions, too. Which means you have to figure it out all over again.

    That said, these are not excuses... and if I know one thing, it's that when you decide it's the most important thing about your life right now, you are a dynamo! Finding the "this is my line in the sand, below which my self care will NOT shrink"... was a key for me, recognizing that something else (in my case, work) was going to command my focus for a period of time.

    2012 for me was an amazing athletic year... I will need to be VERY careful with 2013!

    Good to see you back in the blog-o-sphere, Diane!
    1902 days ago
  • JLITT62
    We definitely all get lazy sometimes. It isn't easy & you're not alone!
    1902 days ago
    I can relate to being lazy when it comes to doing what I know I should...defiant, too. Sometimes I wonder why I sabotage myself or lose focus.Guess it's just seems easier at the moment...but not in reality. It's hard to keep that momentum going, but we're worth each effort. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1902 days ago
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