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This time is about ME

Sunday, January 06, 2013

For the past two years i've allowed myself to regain the weight that I had worked so hard to lose. Why? I know some will ask because they haven't reached that point and they think heck if I make it I won't go back. Well sometimes we lose the weight but we don't lose the old thinking. Well this time is a bit different. I have come to realize that I have to change my thinking, as well as my body. Yup you can lose the weight but it takes work to keep it off. I always found it funny that people at goal and in maintenance always said the real work begins when you reach goal. It really does.

So as I work on losing this weight I am also taking the time to learn a few things about myself that I didn't realize before...or maybe I did know but just put to the side. It is ok to have a cheat day but when that day continues and then becomes a part of your routine it isn't ok. And when they say it didn't happen overnight and it won't come off overnight it is the truth. You don't just wake up one day overweight. It happens gradually and you just brush it aside and ignore the changes until that "oh oh" moment. Not the "ah ha" moment when the journey clicks, this is moment when you head to the store for pants that fit, or you realize you've lived in sweats for months and now it occurs to you that that just isn't right.

Everyone struggles with some portion of this journey. Whether it is the food portions, the exercise, the mental challenges of getting slim, the journaling. We all have out crosses to bear. So this time lets take the time to find what it is we are searching for and for the last time lets get this weight off and then we can learn to live in another world. A world of control over our emotions.

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  • ARW715
    Amen sister!
    1839 days ago
  • RFJSJ50
    Your words have so much meaning for me. I'm on a similar journey in that I'm finally committed to losing the weight I gained after a 100 pound loss. I need to change not only my eating and exercise habits, but also my "mindset" and acceptance of myself.
    Stay strong.
    1839 days ago
    Maintenance is a battle I look forward to fighting. emoticon It was my goal for the holidays, to enjoy myself, but maintain my loss. Now I am ready to start losing again, so that maintenance can become my lifetime battlefield.
    1839 days ago
    Ultimately it's all in your head.
    You're so right - it's the thinking that needs to change.
    1839 days ago
  • TERESA6262
    Hi Michelle,
    Your blog may me feel better, or at feel least that I am not the only one who has slipped. However, I feel guilty for ME feeling better that YOU slipped too! It's not right! There's something twisted about misery loving company. I too, have gained my weight back. I thought I had made life changes. I didn't think I'd end up here again. I actually considered changing my SP identity and not returning to look for my old SP friends because of the shame and guilt of my failure. Way back when, there there were days and weeks I talked big, and meant it, because my actions really lived up to what I knew was good and right for my health and weight. I DID mean it! But alas, me slipping in small things and then gradually, ever so slowly, reverting back to my old habits and until I just didn't care anymore got me right back to the beginning. However, this time, my plight is worse than before because I KNOW there IS a better way, a more healthy way to live.... and knowing THAT makes my plight and shame worse than it was a few years ago when I started this healthy trek for the first time. Anyway, thanks for sharing, Thanks for making yourself vulnerable by sharing honestly. Know that whatever the case, this particular blog helped me. You helped me. Your blog gave me some hope that at least I am not the only one who's messed up and that I need to quit whining and get on with it! I am grudgingly, entering this health "race" again, even though I don't "feel" like it. I have learned from the past, that actions and success bring on the good feelings and motivation needed for success. So that's where I am at. I am starting with sheer objectivity that I need to do this, but am not "feeling" it yet. Tomorrow is day one! I did start logging some of my food these past few days, to at least begin getting back into the swing of things. Tomorrow is my first day back to work after the holidays and the routine of work days seems to help me stick to a health routine as well. Again, thank you, Michelle. We'll get there... one step at a time.

    1839 days ago
    Good points. Good message. -- Lou
    1839 days ago
  • SULTANA2013
    Great blog and well said emoticon
    1839 days ago
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