Sunday, January 06, 2013
I've restarted my resolve to lose weight so many times I have lost track. I'm tired of it. I'm also tired of being tired, and I'm pretty sure if I dropped some pounds, I wouldn't be so tired any more. I'd also feel better about myself, be able to wear clothes I wanted instead of just because it's what fit and what I have. I think I'd be a happier person for myself and my family. I think I'd be more spontaneous, because I don't think I honestly own up to how much my weight holds me back. We get this one life to live, and I don't always feel like I'm living it because I am carrying extra weight. So, if those reasons weren't enough, we have a child to stay healthy for as well, so what is my problem. Why can't I put down that cookie and make a healthier choice so that after I eat it, I don't feel guilty, sad and disappointed in myself. I want to feel like a success and not a failure in the weight department. I want to feel proud of myself, so I don't know why I can't just listen to my good inner dialogue and override the portion of me that says I'm not going to do it anyway, so eat that cookie. I need to keep all of these reasons why in mind and I need to do it on a daily basis. I need to learn that everything is ok in moderation. I tend to live in an all or nothing mode when it comes to food. I need to adjust that. So, here's to restarting for the last time and making the adjustments that will make this year a success for me.