Sunday, January 06, 2013
First of all, thank you to Wingless for inspiring me to blog even though I don't feel like I've fully thought through what I want to say.
So today was a big day of eating. I signed up for a food tour of downtown Los Angeles with my parents -- so basically, we went to 6 different eateries and had nibbles at each one. I didn't pig out, but tried to eat reasonably -- I took a few things home without trying them, and stopped eating other things after a bite or two. I still went over my calories for the day, but I felt like I exercised some good self control. Had a healthy dinner afterwards, and then was hungry and had half an apple, a tangerine, and a light yogurt (that's a special treat for me because I normally have plain). Without the evening snack I would have been within my calories, but I was hungry! Not sure if today counts as an overall win or loss, since I did exercise self-control, but I also went over my calories.
In the morning I went for a jog/walk (I do intervals) and I went 5K! Well actually 4.988 km, which probably counts as a 5K. It gives me hope that my sort of goal of running a 5K someday might actually be possible for me. It took 45 minutes, so not fast (but there were lots of hills involved). And I was doing it with my son in a stroller, which adds difficulty. I had hoped to do weights afterwards, and I ran out of time, but I am proud of myself for running. It made me feel better about all the eating I did later in the day.
One thing I'm realizing, though, is how much I enjoy eating. Not just the physical act of putting food into my mouth, chewing, swallowing, but how much eating is a part of my social life. When I first met my husband, and he wanted to hang out with someone, he would invite them for a hike for a bike ride. Me, I would invite them out (or over to my house) for brunch, lunch, or dinner -- possibly also adding in an activity like a walk, but definitely not missing the meal. I don't think that's unique to me – I think that's just how our society is. But it makes me think about what I want my life to look like. I certainly don't want to miss out on social activities because of my diet. At the same time, I do want to be successful with my goals. So I guess the key is to figure out how I can participate in social activities either while eating moderately, or while changing the focus of the activity to be about something other than food.
It also makes me think about how much of success is staying within my calories, versus how much of success is behaving moderately in the situation I'm in. So if I had to measure, would I say a day was more successful if I stayed within my calories but didn't really do anything or eat out, or would I said it was more successful if I went a little over my calories, but went out to a social situation and felt that I really ate mindfully and appropriately? I'd say that the latter makes me feel better about myself, but the former is probably more important if I want to actually lose weight.
The key will be to figure out how to follow my program while still maintaining an enjoyable social life. This will be especially important when we go on vacation next week – because I'll be with my whole family, enjoying myself and eating, but also hoping to keep on track. Fortunately, we'll be in Hawaii, where it's easy to eat healthy meals like fish and fresh tropical fruit, and where exercise is also a part of what we'll be doing. This is the first vacation we will have taken with our son, so it will be interesting to see how having a baby impacts the way that we vacation.
Tomorrow I'm going out to brunch with an old friend from high school. Again, if I really wanted to, I could offer to make her brunch here at home, but I much rather go to a nice restaurant away from the clutter of the house. We'll walk there, and once there I'll do my best to order wisely, eat mindfully, and enjoying myself because of the company rather than because of the food. Since my natural instinct is to be a member of the clean plate club, this is not natural for me, but I'm learning how to stop eating when I'm actually full.
Hope you're having a great weekend so far! Keep the Spark alive!