You know this year there are so many things I want to do.

Drive a car
Play a guitar
College Algebra

There's the things I need to do.

Get a better control of my fears and emotions
Lose weight
Get a job
Drive a car
College Algebra
Getting to know God better

Getting a better control of my fears and emotions is the one of the most important things I need to do this year. It affects everything else on this list. I haven't had a job because I fear rejection, I fear the unknown, I fear that something will happen to me on the job like me having an anxiety attack last year.

I've always been afraid of driving a car. Last year my fears just got bigger.

Lose weight while I was wasting away to my fear I actually gained weight. Now I have a better control of myself and I'm asking how the heck am I going to reverse this.

I need to get closer to God, read the bible more, pray. Many of this started happening albeit slowly when I left church in 2008 it really didn't come down until around March of last year. I use to have great grades, great friends, awesome weight of 137 of course I was 15 so I can't add a car to that list. In 2011 I had a nice job at the college. Now I'm just wasting away. I need to get back in control. I'm really going to need Gods help.

I know I will always have the support of my family. This is my year and things are going to change for the better. I will get a job and help my struggling older sister and mother out financially. I got their backs on everything else. I will learn to drive. Biggest thing holding me back. I live in a city where you pretty much depend on cars to get places no public transport or walking. Places are between 4 and 5 miles out which is only a 15 minute drive but it's to long a walk.

College Algebra. Yeah, I don't know about this one but I'll be happy with an B.

Lose weight. My mother and sister are both obese I'm heading their way and they tell me it not easy being obese. I'm going to try my best to lose the weight.

Most important. Getting to know God better again. I remember when my life used to be better. Then I left. I've started going back to church and things have been getting better for me. Makes me wonder why I ever left. I need to pray more, read the bible I would appreciate if one of people who comment pair up with me on that.

This is my year and I'm coming out of this funk not matter what. This is only the beginning.