Saturday, January 05, 2013
As I laid down in bed on my computer I literally sat here and debated whether or not I should write this blog. I donít know what Iím going to say in it, but I made myself a promise that I would blog everyday this month, and I havenít kept up with any of my other goals, so I am bound and determined to keep up with this one, although itís not going to be a very long one.
All evening I have just felt lonely, like completely alone. I mean this isnít out of the ordinary for me because I can be extremely picky about people, and people get on my nerves fast, but no one gets it. No one gets me. Heck I donít even know that I get me anymore. IĎve been thinking about him a lot again lately, but I always do when Iím lonely. Itís my thing. But I know that heís only bad for me, and contacting him isnít going to do anything but hurt me. Heís not my Mr. Right, and I know that. I sure canít wait to find my Mr. Right thoughÖit would just make everything so much easier.
I ate fairly well today, although I havenít been logging everything I have been eating because I have been extremely busy, but I know I did better than normal today. I went to the store and got a few things for my new dorm room today. Tomorrow Iíll be washing clothes and packing up to leave. I havenít fully decided how I feel about going back to school yet, knowing that I wonít be back home again until March. I know itís not that far away, I just feel so alone at school. Hopefully this RA thing will help fix that void though.
I hope everyone is doing well! I love you all!