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Day #21

Saturday, January 05, 2013

As I laid down in bed on my computer I literally sat here and debated whether or not I should write this blog. I don’t know what I’m going to say in it, but I made myself a promise that I would blog everyday this month, and I haven’t kept up with any of my other goals, so I am bound and determined to keep up with this one, although it’s not going to be a very long one.

All evening I have just felt lonely, like completely alone. I mean this isn’t out of the ordinary for me because I can be extremely picky about people, and people get on my nerves fast, but no one gets it. No one gets me. Heck I don’t even know that I get me anymore. I‘ve been thinking about him a lot again lately, but I always do when I’m lonely. It’s my thing. But I know that he’s only bad for me, and contacting him isn’t going to do anything but hurt me. He’s not my Mr. Right, and I know that. I sure can’t wait to find my Mr. Right though…it would just make everything so much easier.

I ate fairly well today, although I haven’t been logging everything I have been eating because I have been extremely busy, but I know I did better than normal today. I went to the store and got a few things for my new dorm room today. Tomorrow I’ll be washing clothes and packing up to leave. I haven’t fully decided how I feel about going back to school yet, knowing that I won’t be back home again until March. I know it’s not that far away, I just feel so alone at school. Hopefully this RA thing will help fix that void though.

I hope everyone is doing well! I love you all!

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  • STODD251
    I'm sorry you're lonely. It's not fun, but what I've found is that when I keep myself busy, it isn't as bad. For me this means plenty of time at the gym and hanging out with the few good friends that I have.

    I'm glad to hear that you're trying to make better choices. After a while, you're going to love healthy foods.
    1874 days ago
  • LZY0108
    I never got the chance to go away to college. I ended up going to school locally and staying home. I always sort of regretted it. It seems like it would be such a fun experience....
    In regards to your "him".. I too had a BAD ex that was a problem for me when I was younger. I used to completely regret the relationship, but, now I kind of appreciate that I went thru it. It lets me see how amazing my relationship with my husband is. Once you know how bad it can get you truly appreciate the good ones.. ;) Well I hope you continue to keep pushing and you keep blogging!
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    1875 days ago
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