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I Deserve To Eat!

Saturday, January 05, 2013

I have recently had quite the time figuring out just how many calories I need to achieve my goals. I think I figured out today what has been my problem. I have been kinda trying to do an algebra problem where part of the question is actually wrong. At least I think so anyway. I am not a math person but it just seems like that to me.

I used the BMR calculator to figure out my needs and then figure how many calories to cut as well to lose 1-2 pounds a week. Then the scale keeps stalling until finally I binged last Saturday. Then the scale dropped 2 pounds almost miraculously!

I went back to the calculator today for the first time since October 23rd. Then while I was doing the calculations, I had a lightbulb moment. I had underestimated my activity level and then found the lower calorie number more acceptable than the higher range number.

For this to happen two parts of my equation had to be wrong.
1. I had to assume I was too fat and run down to really be doing the level of workouts and intensity I am actually doing.
(I work out 6 days a week and usually get in an hour.)
2. I also assumed I was too much of a glutton to deserve the amount of food my body actually needs. That number was just way too high for me to believe. Besides, losing weight is all about deprivation, right?
( 1687-1987 calories a day are what I need)

It took me some time to build confidence in myself and completing that 5k really went a long way to helping me achieve that confidence. I even posted some pictures of myself and for the first time in my life, I didn't pull apart those pictures like some critical cattle auctioneer.

I like a lot of the things about me in those pictures I posted. They are not perfect, nor will they ever be but they are where I am and further more, they are of a me I wasn't just a few weeks ago.

Thank God and Sparkpeople and all of my friends here who are with me on this journey. I am so thankful for so much today. I am looking forward to the next phase of this journey but for now, I am really super excited to just be where I am today. Tomorrow is its own day and I will be a me I have never been before in it due to today's enlightenment.

Said enlightenment being that I work hard when I work out. I make healthy food choices and diligently watch my portion sizes. I say positive things to myself and, above all, I deserve the amount of food my body needs to do its job.

I encourage anyone reading this to check themselves and make sure they aren't unwittingly telling themselves by some pre-conceived notion that they don't work as hard as they really do or that dieting is all about starvation and want.

Only the individual knows just how much effort they are putting out, and if you are giving it your all, then pat yourself on the back and enjoy the food you use to fuel those efforts!