Saturday, January 05, 2013
They say don't live in the future for a very good reason. I am finding that every bad choice I make makes me feel a sense of doom for my future success almost a defeated feeling that overwhelms me and seems to push me over the edge into binging in order to take away the feelings of the unknown and assumed failure. Living in the moment is hard but I know it is where success begins. How do I take it day by day? Maybe realizing if I don't start NOW I will never reach my goals. If I think small to get big results to accept and agree to be where I am, what I look like for now, for today, tomorrow or a few weeks but all the while working every minute, every hour, everyday towards getting where I want to be. Accepting the way I look now is the hardest thing to do. I hate what I see in the mirror so it will take a lot of effort and commitment to get off this roller coaster that is spiraling out of control feeding to sooth my feelings frenzy. I want to love me, love what I see and how I feel again.