My mother is pretty skeptical about me losing weight. Oh, well... I really can't blame her: I've tried so many times and have always gained more weight after a short-lived success! Why is it different this time?
Unlike before, this time my goal is not to get skinny as fast as I can, but to learn new habits that will help me get to a healthy weight and stay there. After having a baby, I know I won't ever have a perfect body, so I am not chasing ideal forms anymore. Instead, I want to make peace with myself and end my life-long battle with food.
After almost 20 years of the struggle I am sick and tired of all this drama. I can't believe that it took me so long to finally realize that my appearance is not what I am loved and accepted for, and that my friends and family see me differently than I see myself in the mirror. They choose to be with me because of who I am, and I don't need to try and impress anybody (except, may be, my daughter).
It was just as eye-opening as realizing that most people clean up their home and stay organized not because they are neat-freaks or have OCD, but because it really does make life that much easier.
The same with my weight. I don't care any more if I am skinny, I just know that without overeating and letting my food consume me, my life will be better.
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