Saturday, January 05, 2013
I suffer from Depression. There I said it out loud and wrote it in my blog. To be honest, I have suffered from Depression my entire life. It actually runs in my father's family and one of our family members has committed suicide because of it. I don't take it lightly. I also refuse to let it rule my life. I remember as a child, being told that I was overly sensitive. I also remember being told to "Buck Up", "Cheer Up", Not to take things so Seriously!!! It was considered a Weakness to give in to the sadness and to cry. Because of this, and because we really didn't know at that time that Depression was a treatable condition, I think that I was in my late 40s before it was suggested that I be given an anti-depressant. The anti-depressant does help some, but I have also made it one of my goals in this journey, to Look For The Lightness, each day. It would be so easy to give in to the pain of the Depression itself and to also give in to the physical pain that I live with each day because of Osteoarthritis, two torn rotator cuffs, and recent hip pain (that could mean a replacement in the future; I HOPE NOT!) My goal is to remain as positive as I can each day by finding things that make me smile. Today, so far, I have read that a dear Spark Friend of mine is feeling better, my 5 year-old Grand-daughter is coming over this afternoon and staying over-night, and I received an email telling me about a good medical outcome from tests taken on the 13 year-old Grand-daughter of my dearest child-hood friend. All 3 things make me smile and feel lighter in spirit; and that is what I am aiming for.
My journey on Spark People will go much smoother and I will be more successful if my spirit is as light as possible.