Everything that I do is an attempt to avoid the big
'D'. I exercise because it alleviates depression. I take fish oil
because its good for depression. I use solar spectrum
lights because it alleviates depression. I participate in group activities
, book club
club) because its healthier to have friends and not to be isolated. I practice yoga
because it alleviates depression. I practice meditation for the same reason. I Spark because it helps me to stay connected and on task. I take Ashwagandha when I'm struggling with anxiety. I even work on losing weight
because the notion of being 600
pounds (common in my family) is depressing
. I even eat
well because eating poorly makes a person depressed. Did you know that alcohol is a depressant? I don't drink alcohol at all. I don't tolerate 'sugar alcohols' either. I pet my Kitty
because that helps too. Of course, I love her and I would pet her anyway because she is my kitty, but thats not the point. I read
, I paint
I play fiddle: all are designed to keep my mind fresh and to avoid the big 'D' in the process.
I'm not super depressed right now. The days are getting longer, that helps. I'm logging my food/workouts. I am working out, which I wasn't able to do for a lot of last year. The big core of what worries me is finances. I haven't had good paying gigs. I do live with my folks. Its really nice to not be homeless. I am working with my Dad on becoming an inspector. I'm hoping that will pan out.
One thing that does make me super happy is my extensive workout DVD collection. I think I could do a different workout 5 days a week for a year and not repeat myself. Of course, thats including all three workouts on several of Jillian's discs, instead of counting them as just one.
I have learned things about myself. I don't do well without my Polar HRM. I don't do well without carrying snacks with me. I don't do yoga right before bed because I'm too tired. If it doesn't happen before dinner, it doesn't happen at all. It just doesn't. I do best if I have pre-cut my veggies at a time when I wasn't hungry. I also do best when I have had my meditation before bed (not nearly as intense as yoga btw.) For some reason, that can be the lynch pin to my whole day.