Saturday, January 05, 2013
I have been waiting to feel "ready" to "start" taking care of myself my eating better, AGAIN, since the 1st of 2013. I haven't gotten there yet.
Last night, though, I had an epiphany. With all the talk about the harm of eating processsed foods lately, I've been driving myself crazy thinking that I absolutely MUST stop eating all proceessed food. If you think about cutting ALL processed food out of your life, it seems nearly impossible--and therein lies the rub!
I know many people can do it, and have done it ... but to me, it's scary. I think the prospect of never being "allowed" to eat something like a Lean Cuisine or a McDonald's salad or all those easy-to-grab things just terrifies me. I've convinced myself that all those things are so bad that if I EVER have one, I'll have "ruined" my diet--then there comes the guilt, and there go the good intentions.
I realized last night that maybe what I need to do is forget about making myself live on "green drinks" that I whip up from fruits and veggies in my Ninja, and quinoa which requires planning and cooking, and all those other wonderful things, and just go back on Weight Watchers.
Weight Watchers works for me (I'm a lifetime member, although I reached that goal half my lifetime ago--I'm 54 now and was 27 then). I've always been able to lose weight on WW even when I was much smaller than I am now.
So why not just give myself permission to go on that plan again, and worry about not eating processed foods AFTER I get a lot of my weight off? Yes, processed foods aren't as healthy, but allowing myself to eat those and getting some of this weight off surely is more healthy than what I'm doing now.
That's the way I'm leaning right now. It might not be perfect, but if it helps me get my weight/BMI down to a healthier level, that MUST be better than PLANNING to be "perfect" and only "eat clean" and never having the courage to get started.
Do you find that you get overwhelmed trying to choose a "way to eat" like me? And does it keep you from getting started?
I wish this didn't have to be so difficult. Sigh. Where has my commitment gone??