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Depressed, anxious, or at peace?

Saturday, January 05, 2013

I've been depressed, anxious & at peace, but usually on separate days. emoticon

This quote is so true for me. It's been tough, but I have learned to be more at peace on a regular basis. I used to be the biggest Type A personality & perfectionist you have ever seen in your life. My blood pressure was always a little on the high side. I would be devastated if I made a mistake on anything & I rarely had any peace in my life. I was my own worst critic.

As I've gotten older (not that I'm that old -- I'll be 45 in April), I've given myself a break. I'm not so hard on myself anymore. I make a mistake, acknowledge it, learn my lesson from it & then move on. That also helps keep any depression at bay.

Jan. 4 was the one-year anniversary of my lumpectomy. One year cancer free!! WooHoo!!! After I finished all of my treatments, I decided that stress was probably one of the contributing factors because I would get stressed about anything & everything.

One of the hardest things for me to learn was to say that two little word "No!" I was constantly "overbooking myself." I have learned to rest more, spend a little more time on me -- for the good of my health -- & I have learned to chillax (as the kids say these days) & smell those sweet-smelling roses.

Today's challenge: Chillax (chill out & relax), practice saying "no" in the mirror & stop to smell the roses today (go do something fun). Life is so short, go enjoy yourself from time to time.

You all are amazing!! Thank you so much for keeping me motivated.

Blessings to you!! emoticon emoticon
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    1897 days ago
    1897 days ago
    It's interesting how loosing our health for a short period or more permanently can help us gain a different perspective. Before my illness years ago I would get asked by colleagues how I dealt with the stress and I wondered what stress? I look back I now know I was surrounded by stress but didn't know it. Being able to do so much less I had to prioritize the important things and it's helped me chillax regularly.
    emoticon to hear you're celebrating you one year emoticon anniversary.
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    1897 days ago
    Thank you for sharing. I, too, have lived in all 3 of these places at different times in my life. The latter is where I am now and a great place to be! I have even learned to be at peace during my weight loss efforts and it has made it so much better! Congrats on your 1 year anniversary!
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    Comment edited on: 1/5/2013 9:32:18 PM
    emoticon Congrats on your one year anniversary cancer free! emoticon Enjoy you time "chillaxing"! Need to do more of that myself! emoticon
    1897 days ago
    "Chillax" is a great word - it is going to be my motto for this weekend emoticon
    emoticon On being 1-year cancer-free!! emoticon
    Great big hugs to you!! emoticon
    1897 days ago
    So VERY true..all of it! Enjoy your weekend!
    1897 days ago
  • MATER88
    Just what I needed to hear! Isn't it funny that things come when you need them?

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    1897 days ago
    I read someplace, a very long time ago:

    "95% of the things we worry about never happen, and we can't do anything about the other 5%, so it doesn't do any good to worry."

    I've tried to live by that 'rule' ever since.

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    1897 days ago
    Yes, congrats on your one year anniversary!
    1897 days ago
    Congrats on you anniversary! One of my goals for the new year is to learn to chillax (I love that word!). I tend to obsess over the littlest things and it's not getting me anywhere! Thanks for the reminder to slow down and enjoy the day.
    1897 days ago
  • 1EMMA2011
    I appreciate this today - I am a hard core recovering perfectionist - who now has tried to transform into wise. Funny how the ones closet to us can sometimes cause the most stress - well for me anyway. Progress not perfection.

    Sending you big big (((hug))) and we can do it!

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    1897 days ago
    Right on! Always great quotes.
    1897 days ago
    emoticon on your 1 year emoticon anniversary! And on learning to relax and be at peace. Getting older does have some advantages!
    1898 days ago
    BIG emoticon to you emoticon I like the chillax :D ME too...
    1898 days ago
    Wonderful! You have reminded me how important "me" is. I too tend to overlook my own needs and pleasures while trying to do everything and be that perfect person. The sad truth is, is that I do all of that just trying to prove it because I am not perfect. This year I will focus on me. I will smell those roses. I will enjoy obtaining my health. Yes, we will make mistakes. Because we aren't perfect. This year, no matter how old we become - we can still have some fun.
    1898 days ago
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