Friday, January 04, 2013
Every day I am learning more about myself and about the journey that I must take to get my mind, body, and spirit back into a healthy state.
This morning, I watched the documentary "Hungry For Change." Honestly, I expected it to be like other eating documentaries and be full of the same old stuff. It wasn't.
Some parts were a touch repetitive, but to me, that was a good thing because it helped drive home exactly what these bad foods do to me. It also helped explain to me why I haven't
been able to keep weight off in the past while on some of the most popular diets.
It also had me in tears. They specified that when you're upset, you shouldn't eat. Sounds easy right? Apparently, not so much for people like me lol. Also that obesity is a solution. Of course, I verbally asked "To what?" which they answered. It's a solution to stress, to drama, and to trauma. Which I can see myself falling under those catagories. I know that there are old wounds that I claim to be "healed from" but I know I am not. I also broke down into tears when they were talking about loving yourself. It's something that I don't feel much...but I want to! So that will be another goal for me. To be nice to myself and learn to love myself again.
We're back at Day 1 with no soda, but I am happy that I didn't finish my can yesterday. Honestly, that's giving me some hope. No soda today, so we're looking good. Yay to hot tea!
At one point today, I did go to the store and I was craving chocolate. I started looking through the candy bars, trying to figure out the lesser of the evils. I was so excited though! I WALKED away from the candy isle and went to look for fruit. I ended up picking up some blueberries
and some water! WOOHOO!
*Does a happy dance*!