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Blogging with a broken heart!!!

Friday, January 04, 2013

The picture for my profile is my kitty, Ms Molly. She was 18+ years old. We had rescued her when she was 8. Two weeks prior, we had rescued PolyDactyl who had been at the shelter for 5 months (her picture is on my spark page). The day we went to look for a second kitty, the one I wanted was in the process of being adopted. I stood there and cried. The volunteer asked if I wanted to see another and this paw reached through the bars and was tapping me on the shoulder. She had just been turned in and the tag wasn't even on the cage yet. She was such an affectionate cat that we took her home even though she was considered a "senior" at 8 years old.

The the first month with us, Ms Molly was very sad. She had been an only cat for eight years. Didn't like having a younger or any other kitty around and really didn't know us. I would come home every day and lay on the floor with her. She would purr but was still walking around with her tale down. A few weeks passed and I was getting ready to call the shelter and tell them how unhappy she was. I walked in the house that night and she came running, purring and "talking" with that tale up. She was saying it was okay, she wanted to stay!

You couldn't help but fall in love with this girl. She was such a talker and purred more then any other cat I had ever had. She would put her little paws around your neck, head on your shoulder and just purr. She was also a true lap cat. Anyone that walked into the house, she would try to lead into the den since she wanted to sit on their lap and be brushed.

After my husband passed unexpectedly, instead of just sleeping on the bed, she would get under the covers and curl up in my arm purring me to sleep. She would reach out with her little paw and it was almost as though she was patting my cheek.

This girl was a diabetic but that didn't seem to phase her. This past year, I realized that she had kitty Alzheimer's (yes, your pets can come down with it also), was losing her hearing and finally became deaf. She handled that well but recently went completely blind due to age and not the diabetes. Since Christmas, there has been a real decline and this past week, heartbreaking. I had a long talk with my pet sitter who is also a vet tech and had to admit that the end was coming. I called the vet yesterday but said I wanted to spend one more night with her and would bring her in today. She stopped eating yesterday and was just very confused. I spent most of the night sitting with Ms Molly in my arms where she rested peacefully. My pet sitter and her husband met me at the vets and we spent time with her until I was ready to let her cross Rainbow Bridge. She went very peacefully and looked like she could have been asleep in her basket.

The tears keep coming since I do miss her so much. But I do know that it was her time. She brought our family so much joy and love. PolyDactyl knows something is wrong but not quite sure what.

I will not be blogging for a few days since my heart just is not in it. For anyone who is an animal lover, I know you understand. She was truly a part of our family.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 1/24/2013 1:29PM

    Mary Anne, I am so very sorry for your loss of Miss Molly. My heart is breaking for you as you go through this very difficult time. I know that Miss Molly would not want you to grieve for her forever but she would want you to continue living life. Yes she is gone at the moment but she will forever remain in your heart. She is waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge where she has many, many new friends to romp and play with until she sees you again. She knows you always loved her dearly and wanted only the best for her. Remember that she is no longer suffering and each day is peaceful and blessed for her. She had 10 plus wonderful years with you and your a rescued cat, her life could have been much different but instead you gave her all the love she could ever want and a wonderful home! My prayer for you is that you are able to find the peace and comfort you need as you go through this very difficult time. We all grieve differently and there is no time limit on our grief. However I am here to help you in any way that I can. Please remember that.

Dear Lord, you are our refuge in good and in bad times. In your infinite mercy, bring peace and comfort to those of us who face days sometimes filled with pain and depression. Help us to realize that through you there is joy and the promise of lasting peace. Help us through the rough times. Walk before and beside us so that we may walk in your footsteps and reach out to you in our journey on this earth. Help us to focus on our blessings rather than our misfortunes, our losses, and our pain dear Lord. Thank you for hearing and answering our prayers. Amen

Blessings and hugs,

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IMEMINE1 1/16/2013 3:31PM

    emoticon I'm so sorry. emoticon

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DIANESAV1 1/11/2013 5:57AM

    It is very hard to lose a pet because they do become family. We have lost some too and eventually the pain subsides a little and you can laugh about the things they would do. I am also a believer that she is with your husband now and will greet you when your time comes. My husband is waiting to see his favorite dog who sat with him in the truck plowing. My husband would look both ways and so didn't Eddie.

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NORASPAT 1/10/2013 9:28PM

    Oh Mary Anne I am so sorry I did not see this sooner. I love cats, I love to look at your pterodactyl (Sorry Mis-spelled).
She is so unique to look at. Miss Molly was obviously unique in other ways.
Our Siamese cat was almost 20 years old when I knew he was sick, he stopped eating but he did keep talking. I called 2 sons in college to tell them My Chang was suffering. They both came home from UMF and UMO and our youngest son asked if he could go to the vet with me. I am thankful I did because we all were so fond of him and some days I feel his presence it is so very odd.
You certainly had a great friend in Miss Molly.
HUGS really big HUGS.
Thanks so much for your support I wish I had known you were grieving, Take care Pat in Augusta. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LIBBYG7 1/9/2013 8:57PM

    Dear Mary Anne,
I've been way behind in reading blogs and such ..... and didn't know Miss Molly had passed. I'm so sorry - knowing how much you loved her and the comfort she brought you --- it's heartbreaking.
But think of the good life you gave her. It wasn't coincidence that she decided to 'stay' with you on the day you were going to call the shelter..... You were there for each other. That's the relationship I had with the three cats who shared my life over 35 years - and now, Lucy, the sweetest, funniest diva doxie in the world.
When their times come ---- it's a blessing to have a 'mom' who knows how to say goodbye....with dignity and peace and love.

You have my sympathy ..... and you're lucky to have Poly to comfort you.....

Time's a great healer ....... I learned that 3x over!

Big Hugs,

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LAC936 1/9/2013 5:49PM

    Mary Anne I have been so busy I didn't see your blog until today about PolyD's sleeping in Molly's bed,. I am so so very sorry for your loss. I have been there (my Sly 20 and Shadow 16) both within the past 2 years and I still miss them. You've had more than your share of grief and I hope this upcoming year brings you and PolyD only happiness and peace.
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DROWSYMAGGIE 1/9/2013 11:07AM

    I am so sorry that you have lost Ms Molly. I know how much your kitties mean to you and I know that you gave her a good life. They become so much a part of our lives that losing one can be as painful as losing a human loved one. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon

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LINDA! 1/7/2013 9:32PM

    My heart breaks for you. Many of my cats and dogs are now on the other side...but I miss everyone of them. I hope that you find peace in the fact that you loved her deeply and gave her a great home.

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HILDABRAND 1/7/2013 9:24PM

    Oh Mary Anne, I am so very sorry. I will be praying for God to comfort you.

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LINDAKAY228 1/7/2013 9:19PM

    I am so so very sorry. I am an animal lover, and my lab is my baby. I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better, but just as when we lose our human loved ones, when we lose our 4 legged ones there just isn't words to take away the pain. My thoughts are with you.

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I feel your pain, I really can relate,as most of us can.....on my page you will see a memorial blog to my lab,Gracie..It just about tore our hearts out,when we had to put her down...our pets really become such a part of our lives,it is indeed so painful to let them go,even when we know it is time to do gracie was only 5 1/2 years old. I miss her so much,and can not even type this without crying! It has beeen almost a year,and the pain resurfaces.......take care, it will take awhile to heal from the emotional pain of it.. emoticon Sharyn

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SLIMMERJESSE 1/7/2013 10:33AM

    So sad to hear this. Sorry for your loss. Big hug.

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LJCANNON 1/7/2013 10:30AM

    emoticon Will be praying as you go thru this. I know you Blessed Miss Molly as much as she Blessed you.

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TWEETYKC00 1/7/2013 10:15AM

    I am so sorry. It is hard to lose a good fur baby. They are truly family and it is as hard as losing a person in your life.

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ANNCHER 1/7/2013 10:08AM

    My heart goes out to you! Extra Extra hugs your way! emoticon emoticon

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COPEMA 1/6/2013 9:56PM

    Oh Mary Anne,
My heart is breaking for you. I went through this last year with my Maddie-kitty and the only thing that got me through it was just knowing she was no longer suffering. You have many, many friends here praying you.

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CHACHAOREO 1/6/2013 11:10AM

    Mary Anne, God Bless you during this sad time. Your pet was a special part of your life and will always have a special place in your heart!!!!! She will always be with you in memory and the love for her will never be forgotten. Thank you for giving her a home from that shelter and allowing her to be part of your family. Please take care--you are in my prayers!!! emoticon

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RUARUGBYNUT2 1/5/2013 10:38AM

    its about 7years since my cat had to be put to sleep cried my eyes out still miss the little thing know how you feel babe BIG emoticon to you x x

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DEE797 1/5/2013 10:38AM

    So sorry for your loss. emoticon

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KSMGLASS 1/5/2013 10:09AM

    Mary Anne, I am so so emoticon to hear about Ms Molly. Sending lots of love emoticon & emoticon your way.
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LEW0213 1/5/2013 10:01AM

    Oh, Mary Anne. I am so sorry. Even though we know the day will come, it never gets any easier, does it? I believe that their spirits stay with us for awhile so don't be surprised if you think you hear her purring. It may bring some comfort to you. Hugs, Linda

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SENATOR9 1/5/2013 9:59AM

    So sorry for your lost my friend emoticon

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    I am so very sorry to hear your sweet Molly has crossed the bridge. Please remember that Molly was so lucky to join your family and to share your love. Your blog made me cry but also warmed my heart. What a special bond you two had. emoticon

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LITTLEWIND53 1/5/2013 7:43AM

    I am truly sorry for your loss. The hardest thing I ever had to do was make the decision to let my Simon cross the bridge and I still miss him a year and a half later.

Ms Molly was so lucky to have chosen you for her forever home. May you find peace just knowing that she will be waiting for you to come to her again......

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KATHRYNLP 1/5/2013 6:55AM

    MsMolly was so lucky to have adopted you. emoticon emoticon

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I'm so sorry about Miss Molly. It's so hard to say goodbye to a beloved family member especially when they have been with you for 10 years.

I wish I was there to help you along with this terrible loss.

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PHEBESS 1/5/2013 2:31AM

    I totally understand, we went through this with Cleo last summer. Big hugs, and take time to let yourself grieve. And remember how much better you made her life in all the years she was with you.

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BUTEAFULL 1/5/2013 12:54AM

    reading your post made me start blubbering too, thinking of my Taz (in my profile pic, was 23 yrs) a one of a kind cat just like yours, I still miss him a lot though it's been 3 yrs since he passed

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KAYDE53 1/5/2013 12:46AM

    Mary Anne, I'm so, so sorry for your loss of Ms. Molly!! I know how you must have loved her!! I've had some very special pets, (cats & dogs) in my life too, and I know they're all over there, playing, beyond the Rainbow bridge, just waiting for us!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SAMI199 1/5/2013 12:36AM

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CONNIER64 1/5/2013 12:34AM

    emoticon for the loss of your beloved kitty emoticon emoticon

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    So sorry for the loss of your kitty. emoticon emoticon

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RFJSJ50 1/4/2013 11:49PM

    Our pets are family members and we grieve their loss as one. I am so sorry to hear about Ms. Molly but you put her first when making that difficult decision out of your love for her. I like to think that my GrayCat and Stormy met her at the Rainbow Bridge and that they are chasing butterflies in a meadow right now.
You are in my prayers.
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1MANKNEY 1/4/2013 11:13PM

    So sorry. We had our dog Candy for 17 1/2 years and her son for 17 years. They were great dogs. Haven't had another dog for 20 years! Ready for one now, but too busy to have one.
Take your time to grieve, we all understand. emoticon

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SHARONBAILEY913 1/4/2013 10:19PM

    Our cats and dogs are truly our family....grief at their passing is what we all feel. I am so sad for you. Hugs.

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CRYSALLIS1 1/4/2013 9:36PM

    So sorry for your loss.

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BLESSED2BEME 1/4/2013 9:25PM

    Yes Mary Anne, I totally understand. My heart goes out to you! You will be in my thoughts and prayers as you find peace and understanding through this loss.

Thank you for sharing her story with us. Kitties are very, very special!

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BEWELL48 1/4/2013 9:12PM

    So sorry!!! emoticon

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SPARKLISE 1/4/2013 9:03PM

    So sorry for your cat loss. emoticon
Your blog made me cry.
Hug PolyDactyl for me, he's gona miss her too. emoticon

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    I am sorry for your lost!
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ARTJAC 1/4/2013 8:37PM

    SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS emoticon emoticon

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LTMURPHY7 1/4/2013 8:29PM


So sorry

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GOOZLEBEAR 1/4/2013 8:01PM

    MaryAnne, I am just now seeing this blog and I am so sorry for your heartache. You know that I know how you feel. Ms. Molly is at the Rainbow Bridge with my Honeybear and I bet they are best friends already since they know we are friends! Sending lots of love and hugs to you at this time. If you need to talk, you know how to get me!!!!

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SAMZA83 1/4/2013 7:59PM

    My sympathy to you, what a wonderful gift you gave your cat by allowing her to live comfortably and pass on with dignity emoticon

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GSWINNIE 1/4/2013 7:56PM

    my heart and prayers are reaching out for you my friend *HUGS*

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SROBERTS82 1/4/2013 7:47PM

    So sorry for your loss! Knowing when the right time is, is always the hardest part. Truly she was a special friend to you! emoticon

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LIVINGFREE19 1/4/2013 7:35PM

    While reading this, I am crying with you. It is sooo unbelievably hard to let them go when you want to keep them, but yet be unselfish and let them go, so as to not have them go through anymore pain or problems.
Take the time you need to heal. We will always be here waiting for your return.

BIG (((HUGS)))

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SABLENESS 1/4/2013 7:30PM

    What a blessing to have had this dear little creature in your life. She sounds like a Cat of Cats. Her precious memory will always be a treasure in your heart, and I'm sure she is grateful for your love.

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HDHAWK 1/4/2013 6:56PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. What a wonderful home you gave her and she didn't spend a day in the shelter. Take care. emoticon

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