Friday, January 04, 2013
I know this isn't the month this usually pops up, but I am so grateful that I have people in my life that care. Not just about me, but FOR me, and help me on this journey of mine. Even in the smallest of ways, they.. you.. are helping me. Encouraging words, understanding, those not so gentle pushes when I don't feel like logging on my food tracker, or even getting up off the couch.
2013 is my year. I'm tired of taking a backseat to other things, other people. It's my own fault, but for once, I'm going to put my foot down for myself. I need to buy some erase-able markers so I can write things to myself on my mirror. My bestest friend in the whole world used to do that, and I'm so doing it.
I've been doing really well on staying within my allotted calorie range. Concentrating on adding more fruits and veggies more than calories though. I'm not going to allow myself to be hungry, but I'm also making a conscious effort to avoid "snacky" foods. Which are small maintainable goals. I'm trying not to overwhelm myself, which may be what my problem has always been. I'm just not able to sustain that whole "All in" mentality. There's just something about me that reverts back to comforting myself with food if I get the slightest bit emotional. No more.
Not as motivated with the exercising, other than playing with the kiddos. This too will come in time. Rome wasn't built in a day, so there's no reason to think that I can hit the ground running and keep up that pace. I am more aware of this than ever, and I'm not going to let the fact that I can't do this, or that, get in my way. No one ever did anything perfect the first time. Second time.. or sometimes third or fourth. Changing your lifestyle is like learning to play an instrument, youhave to learn the basics first, and then keep practicing. Well, I'm slowing down to learn what I need to learn, and practice what I need to practice and do it right.