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An Unexpected Treat and a Realization!

Friday, January 04, 2013

Night before last, my husband received a call from his brother that they would be in town heading back from a trip to Colorado and wanted to see us the next night. So, last night, we met up with them at their hotel and went to dinner. The reason this is such a treat for me is that they have three of the most precious children I have ever laid eyes on. Okay...okay....maybe I'm a tiny bit biased being their aunt, but these three hold a very special place in my heart (and by special, I mean they stand on a sky high pedestal!)

They have one son 6, and two daughters, 5 and the other 6 months. I would love to share a pic here, but I don't feel comfortable posting a pic of them on the internet for all the world to see without my brother in law's permission. They fiercely protect their little angels and I don't blame them one bit for that! Anyway, I took a real shining to the baby and my sis-in-law just hands her to me whenever we are around. I don't know if I just have this begging type of look on my face or what, but she usually winds up in my arms for the long haul when we are all together. Anyway, she's one of those babies that makes the urge for having children almost unbearable! emoticon I think my sister in law said it best when she said, "She gives you baby fever, doesn't she?" emoticon YES!!! She does!

Which brings me to my next thought. I feel like going ahead and sharing here, because I know I won't be judged harshly for anything I say. One of my biggest motivators right now for losing weight (and believe me not the only one, but just one factor) is so I can HEALTHILY start a family. My husband and I desire children if that is what God desires for us. I don't want to enter a pregnancy with an obesity issue. Not. At. All. One of my close friends did this, and had the roughest pregnancy I have ever seen in my life. I also fear that my weight will hinder me from having a baby. Infertility runs rampantly through my family (which is why I have no siblings OR cousins)...yes, that's right...I'm an only GRANDchild as my husband likes to tell people! emoticon I watched my aunt agonize the rest of her life due to her infertility and didn't find out until after she was deceased that her weight had been a considerable factor in being unable to conceive. Now as a believer, I know that it's ultimately not up to me, and I have to trust in that. But, I also believe that it's my responsibility to take care of my body and ensure that if/when I do conceive, I am providing the healthiest living environment for a fetus.

Therefore, I will NOT give up this fight. I'm going to believe that since I have lost weight in the past, I can do it again. I HAVE made positive changes. Even last night, with my brother in law insisting on taking us out to dinner, I stuck right to it and ate what I was supposed to. That's a positive change all in itself! I know one thing I have learned from the last year is that small changes take place over a long period of time. I knew I had done something admirable when I mentioned the other day to a friend that I have been dieting/exercising for the last 7 months and she looked totally shocked! That's been my main problem! I have never stuck to anything for this long. And, I'm willing to keep pushing at it until I find what works for me.

Thanks spark friends for listening, encouraging, and believing in me. Y'all are the best!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    I am right here with you on this issue! We have been working on baby number 2 for quite a while, and I believe my weight is not helping the situation either. I have one daughter right now--she is 4 and her name is Natalie. I was pregnant last spring and summer, but lost the baby at 17 weeks--it was horrible. I know that health will help boost other things in life in so many ways!!!
    1478 days ago
  • _LINDA
    Even if you do not see results on the scale for a long time -you are still upping your chances by living healthy -putting good fuel into your body, treating it well with lots of life giving water and making sure its exercised to be able to handle what life throws at it!
    So glad you have these precious children in your life to enjoy!
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    1480 days ago
    I am also fiercely protective of my 4 angels....what an Awesome Aunt You are!
    ...:::: emoticon for being a Progress Maker!

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    1480 days ago
    I'm like you - I've never committed to anything more than a couple of weeks, and now, I'm going on 7 months as well. It's a good feeling!
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  • DAWNESS0404
    Glad you are staying motivated!! emoticon
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  • SWAZY33
    aahh yes something about holding a sweet baby does bring on the baby fever. THAT desire should def help keep the healthy focus! You are doing great :)
    1480 days ago
    You are definitely making your body healthier!

    I had three pregnancies, and in one of them, I was a lot heavier than in the other two, and it was miserable. My sciatica was much worse with that pregnancy, and my child was much larger even though I didn't gain nearly as much weight during the pregnancy. It was bad. Honestly, I hated pregnancy all three times, but it was much much worse with the third!! I think you're smart to wait!
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    Yay! You're doing so well! It seems like you have your motivators well in sight! Also I want to commend you for your recognizing that you do deserve to feel proud of yourself for all that you've accomplished-Big, Small, Physical and Mental! emoticon emoticon emoticon
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