Friday, January 04, 2013
Let me just start off by saying I intend nothing said in this blog as a excuse. I fully recognize that my weight gain was a direct result of my actions or lack of actions.
Over Christmas holiday I hurt my knee. I was just doing laundry, twisted, and apparently thats all it took. Granted, it was a old injury from last year- hurt while working out (yes, I am putting that out there cause it makes me feel a little better)
I had not went to the doctor, and noticed that the swelling never went completely back down. There is some fluid around the knee. Doctor gave me some anti-inflamatory pills and again, better but still some swelling. I am hesitate to work out as it still bothers me.
While at the doctors office, the doctor(who I have never been to before) went on a rant about my weight. Look, does he not think I can see in the mirror? I mean, I know he probably thought he was doing me a favor and giving me a reality check, and yes at some level I suppose I needed it. But fact is, he assumed I was this lazy slob ( ok I just inserted the slob part) He assumed I was lazy, told me I needed to start working out. This man had no idea that I do work out, Typical week for me is 4-5 days a week at least a hour a day.
I know I can do more, but the assumption that I am lazy bothered me. I must work hard to get results- I get that - and yes do I slack some - YES! I do.
But his judgement just from my appearance bothered me. In a way, it MAY have actually been the best thing because it has fueled me. Unfortunately, I have to be careful with this darn knee of mine... but I am determined to get going in the right direction this time.
First time in a long time, this feels good.