I have been having the worst time getting a grip on my eating this week. I got a taste of eating the way I used to over Christmas and I didn't gain any weight, so now I am struggling with the mentality of "I can do this while eating whatever I want". I've been working out extra hard too which is also letting me think that I can get away with eating more. And by the end of the day, I feel gross and regret my choices.

Each morning this week, I have woken up and told myself that I am going to do better today, that I will track my calories and stay within my range. I do well in the morning. I eat a healthy breakfast, drink plenty of water and tea. I do well through lunch too, but I start to lose it after that. I find myself constantly hungry and I just want to eat whatever I can get my hands on. And then I over eat at dinner. All while making excuses for myself- it's ok, I exercised today, or, I'll do better tomorrow....

So today I am determined to do better. I have enlisted the help of my brother. I have told him exactly what I am going to allow myself to eat and I have put those things into my calorie tracker. I told him to not let me eat anything else today. I need to be really strict on myself today. I need to prove to myself that I can do this, I can get back into eating healthy again.