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Mourning and Eating

Friday, January 04, 2013

My father aged 74 died in September. He was my best friend my mentor and my guide through life. We saw each other every day as we worked together growing our business. We never argued but only discussed things. I miss him so much. But though his life was too short it was not as bad as so many. At least his life was crammed full of experiences and happiness.

Dealing with my grief has been as im sure it is with everybody very complicated. Trying to be strong for the family has often lead to my sadness being dealt with on my own. It has grabbed me at unusual and unprompted times - watching television, on walks or in the car. I guess there is no science that can explain how we deal with the emotions that death brings we just have to deal with it and move on.

As usual for me stress and sadness equals huge food eating and the weight has come back. I am now were I was 2 and half years ago.

But I will not give in - My dad always said "son you must always a goal to aim for or you will never hit the target" so with that in mind and to celebrate his life I am raising money for the Hospice and Prostate cancer research by walking 170miles in the shropshire wilderness in 6 days in June this year.

I will have to be 80lbs lighter or I will not be able to do it so here we go again this time in my dads memory.

Happy 2013 evrybody I wish you all the very best of fortune in achieveing your goals in life this year.

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    Your dad sounds like a wonderful man. And I agree - without a goal your mind will flounder. Goals are motivators! Rejoice that you made a decision to go somewhere. Your mind can be your ally or your worst enemy. You have enlisted it for a positive outcome. emoticon
    1763 days ago
    My dad died in 2000 at the age of 85 and it took me a while to realize that I would always miss him. With time, the pain of grief has disappeared and I remember him fondly for he still lives in my heart and in my memories.
    Your comment about being strong for the family caught my attention. Why are you being strong for them while hurting yourself with your eating? I suspect your family would rather help you deal with your grief. Maybe you can get professional counselling or go to a grief group. Only a couple suggestions for there is one thing that I do know, we each handle grief in our own way.
    May you find peace within yourself.
    1781 days ago
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    1781 days ago
    I know how you feel as it is music that brings tears to my eyes. It is nice to remember the good times but never forget.

    Move forward but remember the past

    1781 days ago
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