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It Keeps Getting Worse.

Friday, January 04, 2013

Tomorrow my brother James will be buried. This evening I got a call that my oldest brother's eldest daughter had been shooting drugs, taking pills, and huffing an areosau then collasped. They put her on a ventilator in the same unit where my brother had died. Her brain isn't functioning and her eyes didn't react when a light was flashed into them. They first said they would take her off the ventilator, then the decided to send her to the capital to a hospital there to detox her body in order to use her body part for donors. She was 42 years old. She was very smart at one time and could have had a promising future. Drugs took that away from her. She became so messed up. She was very sad over my brother. I think she was trying to deaden the grieve and pain. She went to far. I guess out next funeral will be Monday or Tuesday. So very sad. Today has been so upsetting and depressing for me. I spent most of the day in bed. I have no appepitite. My husband made me eat something. I can't sleep. It is all to much for me right now. I will get hold of myself soon. The LORD always helps me come down for thr fog of despair.
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    Oh Judy I am so sorry for this pain and loss in your life right now. My prayers are with you, and with your brother's family.
    1662 days ago
    So sad. I am so sorry. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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    1662 days ago
    I am so sorry to hear about your brother and your oldest brother's eldest daughter. You have had your hands full these past few months. I pray for the peace that passes all understanding for you and your family. Keep turning your eyes on the Lord he will give you strength that you need when you need it the most. Here is hoping 2013 will be brighter for you soon. Lots of Love and Prayers. emoticon
    1663 days ago
    Oh dear Judy. I am so sorry. I will continue to pray for you.
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    Very sorry for your loss. I am praying for you and your family. God will be with you through the funeral and wrap His comforting arms around you and help you through all this. emoticon emoticon
    1663 days ago
    Very sorry for your loss.
    1664 days ago
    I'm praying for you and your family that the Lord will comfort you and draw you to Himself.
    1664 days ago
  • 123ELAINE456
    This is so very sad. My heart goes to You and Families. I feel for You. May God be with You and Hold You in His Loving Caring arms and help You get through this. I know when things happen like this We can't understand why God lets it happen. Trust in the Lord for He is in Control. Only God knows why. Will be praying for everyone that God will see You through this. Try to have a Nice Quiet Day and Eat somthing every three to four hours. Your body needs it. God Bless You. And Take Care. Try to Talk to Your Pastor. That will Help Some. Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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    So sorry about all you are going through.
    1664 days ago
    Oh Sweetie--I am so sorry you are experiencing all this loss. And it can't help by being in less than great health yourself right now. I get a magazine called Prevention & there was a VERY good article in there this month about feeling your feelings. And that it's totally ok. I never really thought I was afraid of my feelings, but I do know that I think other people might be afraid of my very strong emotions. But if staying in bed & allowing yourself to grieve is what YOU need to do, then that is perfectly ok. And you'll know when the time for being in the bed has past or your wonderful hubby will help you know.

    I've seen some of the horrible things that addiction can do to people. I'm so sorry your niece fell victim to her addictions.
    1664 days ago
    So sorry about all these losses. God will grant the beatitude to bear the loss.
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  • MIRFA71
    I am very sorry to hear this news. I am with you in this period of grief. Leave everything in the hands of the Almighty. Take care of yourself. Stay strong. emoticon
    1664 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear you're bearing all this sadness/grief. I don't get depressed often but when I do, I let myself experience it and then get out of my 'normal' routine and somehow it shakes off me. I know it's not always that simple, though.

    Do you write? I find that helps me quite a bit. If you have clergy you can talk to, go see him/her. When my Dad passed away (9 years ago) I couldn't sleep. I finally went to the doctor and he gave me something to help me fall asleep. If you're not sleeping, it makes EVERYTHING worse.

    You'll be in my prayers and thoughts. Pat emoticon
    1664 days ago
    Hand your troubles over to your Higher Power as they are too big for you to handle on your own. Take one day at a time. Remember the good times you had with your brother and his daughter. Also, remember to be good to yourself. Take care.
    1664 days ago
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