Friday, January 04, 2013
Tomorrow my brother James will be buried. This evening I got a call that my oldest brother's eldest daughter had been shooting drugs, taking pills, and huffing an areosau then collasped. They put her on a ventilator in the same unit where my brother had died. Her brain isn't functioning and her eyes didn't react when a light was flashed into them. They first said they would take her off the ventilator, then the decided to send her to the capital to a hospital there to detox her body in order to use her body part for donors. She was 42 years old. She was very smart at one time and could have had a promising future. Drugs took that away from her. She became so messed up. She was very sad over my brother. I think she was trying to deaden the grieve and pain. She went to far. I guess out next funeral will be Monday or Tuesday. So very sad. Today has been so upsetting and depressing for me. I spent most of the day in bed. I have no appepitite. My husband made me eat something. I can't sleep. It is all to much for me right now. I will get hold of myself soon. The LORD always helps me come down for thr fog of despair.