Friday, January 04, 2013
I have not been on here in forever. I really wish I had the motivation to do what I know I need to do...not that I don't consider my health, my kids, my life motivation, but I just can't seem to do what I KNOW I need to do.
I never make resolution to lose weight. Just seem like it's so cliche and I would just be setting myself up for failure. But this year it seems I must. My youngest son told me on new years day of all day, that he didn't want me or grammy to go to Jesus. Not sure why he's thinking about this (that's a whole other issue I have to figure out), and it's not like he old enough to be concerned with my unhealthy BMI... he's only 6. But it just seems like a sign. I've lost weight before, and have been successful at it, but I just don't know why I am just so lazy about it. I know what to do, I know how to do it, but that made me really stop and think about what I was doing to my boys. Possibly cutting my time short with them if I don't fix this. So I started eating better and buying foods that are better for me.
The truth of the matter is I haven't felt good in several months and I know taking this step will turn me around, mentally and physically. So aside from the adjustment in my eating habit, I also made the Dr appts. I had been putting off. I'm also looking into the chapter of Over Eaters Anonymous where I live. I want to start meeting with people that feel what I am feeling and have succeeded.