Friday, January 04, 2013
It's so weird to go back into my old blog... I almost forgot it was here... So many things happened and everything has changed so much that I'm not even sure I'm the same person who wrote those entries. Actually, I know I'm the owner of the password for the account, but definitely, not the same person...
Got married, got divorced. Yeah, that boy that taught me how to get fat in a good way? The same one. Almost 30 pounds later, after 5 years I'm still trying to loose all that "good fat" lol!... OMG.
It is still amazing for me how all of this journey started and, actually was almost fresh to read it in my own words... I think I'm actually writing this down because I will need to read it later... This blog is for me and just for me, no one who knows me knows about it and no one will.
I own a beauty shop now. I am finally on the way of the realization of one of the biggest dreams I ever had... and for some reason, I don't see myself big, nor I feel like that. It is so strange... I see my pictures and I see twice of what I feel... I have been excercising, eating kind of ok, taking my vitamins, but I think it's just age who's not letting me go down as I used to... even though I can see before my 30's I was already having this problem, so I wonder if I'm just being lazy or just got to a comfort zone. I know I want to lose weight. I try. And my question is, Am I sabotaging myself? I can be very well doing it... come on, 6 years and not a pond down? actually, 10 more!!! that's just insane.... Something's gotta change... Inside. I need to look into my mind and change it. Soon.