Friday, January 04, 2013
I suspect I have gained weight - but the interesting thing is how I am reacting to this.
I am not jumping on the scale to see what the damage is.
I am not tracking my food again - even though I know this works for weight loss.
I am not mentally putting myself down - I am not hopeless, weak, etc etc.
I am relaxed about a little weight gain. I have been maintaining at the lower end of healthy - and a few extra kilos would still place me around the middle of my healthy BMI zone.
What concerns me is the disordered eating - eating more than I want, eating past comfortable, covert eating, last meal mentality, eating standing up & straight from the packet.
So in the past I might have set a NY resolution to lose X kgs, track everything, exercise xx minutes etc. In many ways, treating the symptoms, rather than the cause.
The cause, of course, is my emotions. The solution is in improving my understanding of these emotions. Journalling, communicating honestly with others, looking inside myself for thirst & hunger cues - & concentrating on what makes me feel right.
I don't need resolutions - I know the solution, I just want to refocus on the solution. That makes it a re-solution.