Thursday, January 03, 2013
Feeling so much better emotionally. Not feeling as lonely but I do feel sick. I have a cold. Better this week than next week when I go back to class. I'm taking College Algebra 1111 for the third time. First time I had to drop it because of work and second time I failed it because I got sick I was doing well at first but then I started failing when I got sick. This semester I hope to be able to take it without any problems. I really do. I need to be able to move on from this cliff instead of falling into the abyss. I don't think I will fall. I'm much stronger than that.
This may sound like I'm trying to convince myself and maybe I am. It sure is working right now. I think that if it works then I may be able to heal from feeling alone. I may be able to make friends and have a job with the fear of being fired or doing a bad job. Or being run down like at my first job. I know that with practice and exposure that all this will go away.
I haven't been able to do exercise... well I did dance a little because it was my favorite commercial. You know the music on Disney Channel which better that than watching the Jersey Shore. I hate that show. Sorry, off topic. Hopefully I'll feel better to be able to start my resolutions. I gained just 25lb last year. Need to lose them. Thank you for listening. Good Night!