Thursday, January 03, 2013
My boss has been on the warpath for days. Today she went around and reamed each of us in front of all the others. She actually hinted at firing me. I'm ashamed to admit this, but there are times that I almost wish something bad would happen to me so I don't have to go there.
It's not just work. I've been battling a stomach bug of some sort for several days, and the depression is beating me up again. I almost hate talking about it because people tell me that I'm "wallowing," that I'm "choosing" to feel this way because I must enjoy it! I fight it as hard as I can but I'm only human and I don't always win.
I'm just really discouraged. I wish I could stop feeling anything.