Thursday, January 03, 2013
Where do I start. Emotionally it was a lousy day, and in turn, my eating was not so great. :( I woke up to my mom being snarky on an email. That started it. So I went to Starbucks to cheer myself up and work. The working happened, the cheering up, not so much.
Then I got yelled at by my stepdad for having my own (disagreeable to him) opinion. This brought on the tears, and a bout of emotional eating. I THOUGHT I'd gotten past that, apparently not so much :( By the time I was done I'd killed about half of my day's calories. All on sugary junk food. :(
With hubby's coaxing, we walked the mile & a half home. This was an exercise in contradictions and frustrations. In some ways it was good, but at the time I was just busy being aggrevated. My pants & underwear are literally falling off. I am STILL loosing weight with this baby. Mind you, I bought these a MONTH ago. NOTHING fits! Which, considering baby is still growing as he should and is healthy, is a good thing, but I'm confused. And I don't want to spend MORE money on stuff that won't fit me in another month. So I'm stuck with nothing that fits.
Then I kept getting winded walking home. I had to stop 3 times. Now, logically, I KNOW this is cause of baby. But I'm having a hard time convincing my brain that it's NOT cause I'm backsliding.
And even though we are having a fairly decent dinner, I've blown my calories for the day, so I'm over. GRRR. All in all, I mostly want today to be done. Tomorrow will be better. Has to be!