Thursday, January 03, 2013
Yesterday marked my 7 th year anniversary of healthy living. While I had a small blip over the past year or so, I'm proud to have reached this milestone with a renewed commitment to this lifestyle. I struggled to make sense of what had gone wrong, and until just the other day, I couldn't find an explanation. My recent worries about finances, made me realize that, contrary to my belief, I indeed did stress about things, and that stress caused me enough distress, to allow myself to seek comfort in food. Last year, while worrying about how we would pay for my daughters wedding, I did indeed look for unhealthy ways to deal with that stress. All these years, I believed I wasn't affected by stress, but now understand differently.
I now find myself in a place where I can recognize my triggers, and find other ways to deal with them. I'm going strong after six weeks of my re-start. I've been consistent with, exercise, and food, as well as tracking better, and participating more frequently on this site. I've lost 15 pounds and am beginning to see my body getting in better shape. It's a relief, and I'm proud of what I'm doing again. I still battle with my self-loathing issues, and find it difficult to forgive my slip-ups, but I'm at least able to see that for what it does to me.
I know this is an ongoing battle, but feel like I'm winning it again....even as I entEr my 7th year....