Thursday, January 03, 2013
At lunch today, I was was watching clips on GMA about People's "Half My Size" issue. There are 3 of us in our tiny little office, so of course, my coworkers could hear what I was listening to. Co-worker #1, who knew me "before," also had a weight problem when she was younger. Co-worker #2, who just started with us a couple of weeks ago, has no idea how fat I used to be, or that #1 had a weight problem at all.
After a few minutes of listening to these inspiring stories, #2 says, "I don't understand why, when someone stops eating fast food and gets off their butt, they get to be on a cover of a magazine." Keep in mind that this is coming from a young, thin, 20 something.
I'm not sure how I felt about her reaction to the stories...
On one hand, I was irritated that she said that... I kind of wanted to yell that I've nearly lost half my body weight and it's no easy feat. On the other hand, I feel like she has a point. Why should anyone get recognized for this? I'm the one that made myself fat, why should I get a medal for fixing it.
All at once, I had a multitude of thoughts running through my head. How can she say something like that... do I tell her MY story... will it change her thoughts about people who have struggled with weight... how can she look at me and not think I'm still overweight... maybe she's trying to tell me that I need to lose weight...
And yet still, more thoughts... she doesn't think I'm fat... how can she NOT think I'm fat... maybe I really do look almost normal now... she can't think I'm overweight AND still say something like that... can she???
I wanted to talk to #1 to see what her thoughts were about all of it. Maybe she really wasn't paying attention, I'm not sure. I really like the new girl, I have nothing against her regardless of her feelings on the subject. It just brought some weird feelings to the surface on my part, and I just found it all very interesting.