Thursday, January 03, 2013
I read an article on emotional eating and one of the suggested hints was to write down emotional triggers. This is getting right to the core....everything in the open!
So here are some:
Fighting with the kids
This is a common one these days. Neither of them wants to do anything I ask them to do and it usually ends in a fight. I feel bad, they feel bad and it is just not fun! Son has decided to move out recently and this also stresses me out. He is so young but something he has to do to learn. This might change the fighting at home along with new schedule (mentioned next point).
Stress at school
Not too sure what it is but I have been distracted and school has been suffering because of it. I have hours of homework a night and it just always gets interrupted by kids and my dog. When is supper, need to take dog out, Mom - take me to the store
.etc. UGH!!!! New focus is needed and I think a new schedule at home.
Yes, even with all the other things I have with school, kids, and dog, I get bored. I have nothing to do. Or I should say I chose to do nothing! Now this boredom time will be filled with treadmill activities or even some exercise video I have. No reason to be bored any longer!!!
Fear of rejection / being alone
This is a tough one for me to admit. I have been in a number of relationships where it is just one-sided. What I mean is - I really care about the person and then find out that they really just dont. What I thought was a relationship was nothing more to them than a casual meeting/friendship. So, this is typical of the man I have been seeing now for a few years now. I thought things had progressed but I was wrong. I am afraid to say goodbye! I dont want to be alone isnt bad attention better than none??? I know, I know, it isnt but I cant seem to break away. So, I have been what he can call needy always calling him or texting him. I know he doesnt like it but, I do it anyway. I live with the canceled get-togethers because at this point I feel I have no choice. I am become that someone I NEVER thought I could be. I have always been stronger than that what is the problem now
What do I do now???
Well I take one day at a time and learn to walk tall again. I can do this and I can succeed! I dont need a man to validate me! All I need is ME!!!! So I need to break the cycle. Once I find inner peace again I will love ME again. After all whats not to love???