Thursday, January 03, 2013
For most of November and December I knew a big trial was coming my way: 2 days of travel and 4 days staying over at my in-laws' house over the holidays, where it's practically law that you participate in one giant holiday binge. Kitchen counters are constantly covered with rich foods (dips, finger foods, all sorts of sweets) and people were continually making MORE food.
I knew it would take a miracle for me to get through this end of the year test without binging.
The good news is: I succeeded.... for one day. Prayed hard; made a veggie tray; went out for walks; kept my focus.
The next four days - forgot to pray. Forgot to read my list of "power phrases" for fighting off temptation.
Fighting takes a lot of effort, and I got lazy. I also let doubt creep in - I really doubted that I could do it. That I could really resist constant bombardment to overeat for four days.
However getting back on track thankfully hasn't been that hard. I picked up a couple new books to help, trying to read a little bit each day and then journal. I hope to journal more here on SparkPeople this year.
"Made to Crave" by Lisa Terkquist is one of the books I just started. Also Breaking Free, Day by Day by Beth Moore, and Abstinence from Overeaters Anonymous.
From Made to Crave, I learned something new about a very familiar verse, James 1:2. "Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds."
I had never really paid attention to the "consider" part of this verse. But the author stresses that it is not natural for us to feel joy when we are faced with a trial (such as the trial I just failed over the holidays). But regardless of what our feelings are (frustrated, impatient, craving comfort), it is possible to take a moment to CONSIDER the situation. Think about the pros and cons. Consider alternatives. Consider that this trial could actually be a blessing in disguise.
Then I came across this C.S. Lewis quote: "We may ignore, but we can nowhere evade, the presence of God. The world is crowded with Him. He walks everywhere incognito. And the incognito is not always hard to penetrate. The real labour is to remember, to attend. In fact, to come awake. Still more, to remain awake." (from Letters to Malcolm).
"To remember, to attend, to come awake" = "to consider"
So much of our daily battles with attitude or temptation can be WON by remembering that God is with us; by considering what His purpose might be for what we are facing. I see my daily temptations to overeat as a means by which God is trying to draw my attention and remind me that He is here - "don't ignore me." "Consider me."