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Frustration

Thursday, January 03, 2013

I don't want to make a nuicance of myself by blogging too often, but it seems to help to get my thoughts penned down at least once a day.

Currently I feel like munching my heart out - so frustrated I can barely hold it!

Just sooo many challenges coming my way! My middle kid is a complete scatterbrain and its a daily fight to get her to clean her room, brush her hair, heck even bath time is a struggle! Coz on her way to the bathroom, she sees something else she wants to do, and half an hour later and 5 reminders later, she's still not doing what she's supposed to do!

Now her bag for visiting her granny has been only halfway packed, and granny phoned me to bring them back early, insinuating (again) that its my fault that she doesn't have her undies packed. She's on my case about "thanking my sister" for the gift (its an old tale, treating me like a damn kid again!), frustrating the hellout of me and questioning my choices I made when shopping (EVERYTHING I do is always questioned!) and I feel completely out of control, frustrated beyond measure and if I could I'd just crawl back into my hole and stay there.

Work was challenging - I had to phone 30 parents about kids I haven't even met and I HATE phoning - I wanted to quit my job by lunch time!

Lots of small irritations just piling up today!!

My feet are not cooperating even with the minimum walking i have to do from the one office to the other (probably DID hurt it a bit with yesterday's walking again) and I feel hyperly stupid to try anything exercise wise sitting down. Its just totally out of my frame of reference and adds to my frustration!

My pc packed up 4 weeks ago and I now have to share my husband's - which brings its share of frustrations too.

I'm hoping just getting these little thoughts out in the open will prevent me from building up pressure and bingeing - coz I REALLY REALLY feel like munching my frustrations away!

Trying to focus on positives here... uhm... ok.

The jean I bought sits real nice (I'll try and ignore that its a size larger since I bought clothes last year). I havent eaten anything outside my planned meals ... yet. I remembered to fill up my water bottle at work twice instead of drinking coffee, survived 20 minutes of shopping after work, were nice to complete strangers without freaking out and running, I hated phoning but by the 9th call I felt a bit more comfortable doing it, my new boss brought me a trinket from her visit to India (she's sure a sweety)...

School is starting next week, and I don't know how I'm gonna buy my kids school supplies, let alone pay their school fees....

I'm sorry, maybe I should keep a private diary instead. Only thing is, making this blog public, forces me to be accountable and not go into a self-absorbant cycle of self-pity... and bingeing, and abandoning it all.

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MOONSTORMER 1/3/2013 3:31PM

    emoticon don't worry what your mom thinks of things... you are doing great. kids will be kids and do their own thing, no matter what you do/say. you have gone through huge changes, which cause a lot of stress and frustration, but you can do this. remember your self-worth and all the things that make you you - you will do great at the job and find a way through this stressful time! emoticon

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NUTSFORFOOD 1/3/2013 3:12PM

    Thank you for your encouragement :)

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DIANE7786 1/3/2013 2:51PM

    You aren't a nuisance! Sparks encourages us to blog about what's on our mind. Often writiing helps us put problems in perspective. It seemed like you felt less frustrated toward the end of your blog. Post often!



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SHEILA1505 1/3/2013 1:38PM

    Hey Sweetie - it's not being a nuisance!! Chin up, if we don't want to read then we won't but don't stop writing - it's good to get it down on the screen. I write but I've stopped posting it - but that's my choice.

Accountability definitely is good
Why does your Mother's opinion of your purchases matter? In fact, why tell her anyway - you know she's going to give you a 1000 words.

Great that the jeans fit well, you aced the phone calls and the next batch won't freak you out so much

Can the school supplies be bought in phases? I am so back there with you (1980s/1990s) with struggling with 3 sets of fees and school books, stationery etc :(

Hugs


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JEWELLE217 1/3/2013 1:18PM

    I, too, am a constant blogger at times. I feel like people must be thinking "OMG, HER again?" LOL! But, you're right, it does help to stay accountable if you put these thoughts out there publically. I figure, if people don't want to read another blog by me, they just won't. LOL!

Keep blogging...as often as you need to in order to reach your goals!

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