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Thursday, January 03, 2013

I did FANTASTIC until the evening when it all went to hell in a bucket, to quote my beloved Grateful Dead.

For Breakfast I had my usual coffee with 1 TBS sugar and 1/3 cup of whole milk. I wish i could quit that. I've given it up in the past sometimes successfully for months but I love it so much, I havent been able to cut it out successfully on any of my recent attempts.

Then I made a smoothie with : 1/2 cup OJ, 1/2 almond milk, 1/2 cup spinach, 1 frozen banana, 9 frozen strawberries, 1/2 cup blueberries, 2 TBS hemp protein powder, 1 TBS barlean omega 3 oil, 1 tsp chia seeds, 1 tsp spirulina. All organic.

Super tasty, super healthy.

Lunch was left over steak from Logans Roadhouse. It was my dad's so i dont know what cut it was but I cut all the fat off like I was performing open heart surgery. It ended up being just shy of 3 oz and I had that on a salad of 2 cups romaine, some tomato and onion, 1/2 ounce parm cheese and 2 TBS croutons. Oh yeah and 2 TBS of homemade greek dressing. I probably should have cut that back to 1 but no big deal.

Around 3 I had a standard snack for me : apple and 1 oz cheddar cheese

Dinner was a big adventure and I felt great about it. I made a stir-fry recipe with 1 block of firm tofu, 1 zucchini, 1 bell pepper, 2 TBS sesame oil, 1/4 cup diced onion, 1 TBS parsley and 1 tomato. That made about 5 cups and I had about 2 cups. Plus I sprinkled 1/2 TBS of Hemp Nut Seed on top of my portion. Then 1 square of dark chocolate to finish things off. (or so i thought)

Plus I drank a bunch of water. Still not enough but I wasnt really counting. Just kept filling up my cup over and over. The thing about water is that I have the worlds smallest bladder and when i try to drink a lot, i feel like I'm peeing constantly. I was getting annoyed yesterday with trying to do things and having to stop every 15 minutes to pee. But I'm trying to learn to live with it. Its harder at work. Very distracting to try to interpret on a full bladder.

Anyway, I digress. Now if I would've finished the night there, it would have been beautiful. My calories were about 1350. I didn't work out yesterday except for some cleaning so that was perfect.

We went to our weds night church meeting and took all the offending left overs to pawn them off on our friends. Halfway through the talk, I started getting hungry. By the time it was over, I was really hungry. It was almost 9 though. I should have just went home and I probably could have made it to bed successfully. I've heard a few times that its not a bad thing to go to bed hungry and I often do.

But not last night. I walked into the kitchen area and there was my pregnant best friend and my other 2 young, model looking friends just tucking right into the cream cheese ball and cookies we brought. I caved big time. 4 double stuffed oreos and about 7 cheese ball crackers later I finally pried myself away but the damage was done.

One good thing is I logged it all. Well I estimated cuz i certainly wasnt measuring my pig out session. But I gave it my best estimate and thats a step in the right direction because most of the time when i do stuff like that, i dont even attempt to log it. It was ugly.

My grand total for the day was 2248.

Not impressed with myself.

But seriously, why did I get so hungry after dinner? I ate so well! I actually didn't log until after everything so i dont know if i was short on protein or anything before my little binge. Maybe the tofu just wasn't enough protein. I am trying to find ways to cut back on meat so maybe it wasnt enough protein and maybe I just got used to stuffing myself the last couple weeks that when i actually ate normally, my body was like "whats this all about? wheres the junk?"

Well, I'm back to it today. And I'm going to go to the Y later. (!!) It's my last day of break. Tomorrow I have "professional development" and then monday the kids come back. I dont even want to think about it. so depressing. Anyway more cleaning and organizing today and trying to mentally prepare myself.
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    i have been making a drink with chia seeds and walnuts and pea protein powder and almond milkand berries and it tastes TERRIBLE !! LOL... Maybe I should try yours.......
    I use 1BSP if seeds instead of tsp !wonder ????

    Loved your blog and keep on keeping on and youKNOW that you are worth it !
    1903 days ago
    Sometimes just knowing the food is there and what it is and how good it is, is all it takes to start making us crazy. It's so hard! BUT we'll get there one day where we'll be in control!!! emoticon
    I want to go get some spirulina and vegan protein powder for my shakes. And the chia seeds. I haven't gotten those yet either. I have been using flax seeds though. I've been trying to start to drink more of my food than not, not every day but here and there, just to try and get my grabby addiction to food under control. We'll get there!! emoticon
    1904 days ago
    I think you did great. Yes, you had a minor indiscretion at the end of the night, but there's a learning curve with everything. One day at a time!
    1904 days ago
    I'm with Jean. Your smoothie sounded yummy! I'm so proud of you for tracking everything! Knowledge is power. Sounds like you're definitely on the right track. Do you track how you feel, before and after each meal? I've realized that I have a lot of emotional connections to food that I have to work on breaking.
    1905 days ago
    Your smoothie sounds delish! Just keep doing your best it will all even out. emoticon
    1905 days ago
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