Well I'm back at work after a 10-day break for Christmas, but the break was pretty hectic. I spent 2 days on the road, driving w/hubby & 16-yr-old to Colorado to visit the in-laws, and we were only able to stay 2 days. My older girl, her hubby & two kids stayed at my house while we were gone, watching the pets. Once I got back I watched HER kids because her daycare was closed for Christmas break. So really, yesterday was the only day of that 10-day break that I had to myself!
So I'm back at work now, wondering what I can do different THIS year - why? Truth is, I kind of got in trouble back in December - I was written up by my supervisor for spending too much time surfing the net at work (gee, what am I doing NOW??
). A fair amount of surfing was on SparkPeople, some was reading headlines, but most of it was watching YouTube videos. So I just quit going to YouTube while at work, and I seriously felt like I was having withdrawals!
Needless to say, with finals week going on I turned to chocolate, and GAINED 6 lbs!!!
I ended the year 3 lbs heavier than I started; needless to say that roadtrip didn't help but really, the damage was already done.
So what do I do about it? I decided to get this book called "The Hunger Fix," which is more about behavior than actual diet. So far it's been pretty insightful, about how someone like me (who gets bored or distracted easily) uses "false fixes" like chocolate or YouTube to stimulate the dopamine levels in the brain, creating a type of addiction. In fact, it feels like the author is describing ME when she connects food addiction and Internet surfing. Now, even though I describe myself as a "chocolate addict," I really don't believe in food addictions. Many years ago I smoked, and I was truly "hooked" on nicotine. But I have to admit, the chocolate/YouTube behavior closely mirrors my former nicotine addiction. So what I'm doing different THIS year is, along with my diet I'm going to work on my behavior and my attitude towards life in general and food in particular.
Life is Beautiful - Nikki Sixx wrote that song, and he is a recovering heroin addict. I find his music in his band SixxAM inspiring. Life is beautiful, and I should appreciate it and do more. First thing I found out when I got to work was that a Professor at OCU died of a heart attack on New Year's Day. I didn't really know him, but it's still pretty sad.
Well I have my goals and my task, and I need to get back to work. Thanks for listening.