I have to confess – my BMI is back up to overweight. I put on 13 pounds over the holidays. I kept saying it was water or some other such nonsense. It is cookies and cinnamon rolls and hot cocoa and huge dinners and everything I know better than to do. I was BAD and now I’m paying for it with my new jeans feeling tight and a loss of my “maintenance” status. I don’t say this to berate myself, but it is just the fact of the matter.

Somehow knowing I was doing this to myself made my eating worse. I’m snarffing my meals so I don’t “have to think about what I’m eating”. Now how silly is that?!? I called myself “chubby” last night! That is not going to help. At least I caught it before it went into major negative self talk. Nope this all has to stop. And to stop it I have to be happy and positive with myself. So what to do?

Well, I’ve noticed changing one’s look can really affect attitude. On that note: My piggy tails are here to stay. I’ve put the black dye back in my hair. I pull out my red lipstick (I haven’t worn lipstick in about 5 years)!!! I even bought eyeliner. I’m wearing the fun clothes – nothing sad. And I have 6 colored hoops in my ears! See each of those piercings represent 10 pounds I’ve lost. I may have found some – but I lost them once and I can do it again. My earrings are PROOF!

I’ve also decided that I’m going to have a happy day today if it kills someone! Believe it or not, most people don’t like me. I tend to be blunt, I have absolutely no filter between my brain and mouth. I dress “different” (my happy top today has leather laces and eye-hole cut long sleeves). I have a warped sense of humor and an attitude that has attitude to spare. What does all this have to do with being a happy day? Happy day means being ME! See when I get down on myself (for anything), I start listening to all those people who don’t like me. I stop talking because I might say the wrong thing. I dress in calm acceptable clothes. I stop making jokes and don’t feel very entitled to my own attitude.

In the immortal words of Starbuck – FRACK that! I’m going to be me and if someone doesn’t like it, they probably didn’t like me anyway. So :P! I need to be silly and happy so I can get through this bump and come out feeling wonderful! I know I can. The jingling in my ears proves it!

To jump start my new year on the first I will achieve

3 planned meals
2 Motivational Articles
1 SparkPeople video