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Confessions and Attitude.

Thursday, January 03, 2013

I have to confess – my BMI is back up to overweight. I put on 13 pounds over the holidays. I kept saying it was water or some other such nonsense. It is cookies and cinnamon rolls and hot cocoa and huge dinners and everything I know better than to do. I was BAD and now I’m paying for it with my new jeans feeling tight and a loss of my “maintenance” status. I don’t say this to berate myself, but it is just the fact of the matter.

Somehow knowing I was doing this to myself made my eating worse. I’m snarffing my meals so I don’t “have to think about what I’m eating”. Now how silly is that?!? I called myself “chubby” last night! That is not going to help. At least I caught it before it went into major negative self talk. Nope this all has to stop. And to stop it I have to be happy and positive with myself. So what to do?

Well, I’ve noticed changing one’s look can really affect attitude. On that note: My piggy tails are here to stay. I’ve put the black dye back in my hair. I pull out my red lipstick (I haven’t worn lipstick in about 5 years)!!! I even bought eyeliner. I’m wearing the fun clothes – nothing sad. And I have 6 colored hoops in my ears! See each of those piercings represent 10 pounds I’ve lost. I may have found some – but I lost them once and I can do it again. My earrings are PROOF!

I’ve also decided that I’m going to have a happy day today if it kills someone! Believe it or not, most people don’t like me. I tend to be blunt, I have absolutely no filter between my brain and mouth. I dress “different” (my happy top today has leather laces and eye-hole cut long sleeves). I have a warped sense of humor and an attitude that has attitude to spare. What does all this have to do with being a happy day? Happy day means being ME! See when I get down on myself (for anything), I start listening to all those people who don’t like me. I stop talking because I might say the wrong thing. I dress in calm acceptable clothes. I stop making jokes and don’t feel very entitled to my own attitude.

In the immortal words of Starbuck – FRACK that! I’m going to be me and if someone doesn’t like it, they probably didn’t like me anyway. So :P! I need to be silly and happy so I can get through this bump and come out feeling wonderful! I know I can. The jingling in my ears proves it!

To jump start my new year on the first I will achieve

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    Okay so how many friends do you have.......had to scroll and scroll to the bottom, lol. That right there should tell you you are loved, liked, and okay. I have to admit I started to like you when I noticed you were kind of qwirky. By that I mean, not the run of the mill boring everyday gal. I like your difference. Variety makes the world go round. I get really bored quickly so I love variety. By the way Love the new dog background, love the colors and great dogs. Be yourself and the people that will come to you will be people who are worth your time and effort. You definetly got me!!!! Susan
    1864 days ago
    Kitty, you are amazing and you rock sweetie! You are beautiful! repeat, YOU are beautiful. Wear what you want. God loves you for who you are with your own personality and particular details. I love you, and your family and true friends love you too. The rest of the world doesn't matter. If you live your life to please everyone, you will end up pleasing NO ONE, including yourself. Be yourself, and the people who are true will accept you as you are. Love and big hugs, Karen emoticon
    1872 days ago
    Yeah, what they all said! You rock!!!

    1873 days ago
    That's the attitude, never give up and you can do amazing things.
    1873 days ago
    I agree you need to be who. If the people around you don't like that is their problem not yours. I have no filter either i say and then go insert foot in mouth so. Here's to being goof balls. You can do it.
    1873 days ago
    You go Kitty, there is no other way to be but to be yourself. 2013 is the year to suceed in all your endeavors

    good luck to you

    you are my kind of friend blunt and silly and right ot the point

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    1873 days ago
    Wow, awesome blog!!! I love your attitude, this is so great!!!! You are always a HUGE inspiration, and I love all the self love going on here, I agree, completely, we have to love ourselves, no matter what the scale says. Rock on girl, you are too cute!!
    1873 days ago
    Way to go! Even when I was obese, I knew it was a way to protect myself from worrying about what people thought of me, because I was just that obese lady. Maybe I'll try wearing lipstick.
    1873 days ago
    Planned meals sounds like a good idea. I'm going to get started on that. Eating without a plan has always screwed up even my fiercest resolve.
    1874 days ago
    Love the sounds of your shirt! Love your attitude! Love you! Don't change for anyone! Jingle those earrings and walk proud and talk proud! Get back to business with your health & fitness! Remember where you were a year ago and I know you will find the motivation to kick start your well being! Thanks for being my Spark Friend!
    1874 days ago
    When you try to be someone other than who you are you become miserable. I'm glad you are able to celebrate you no matter what people think! emoticon
    1874 days ago
    Be who you are, that is what will make you happy!
    1874 days ago
    You go, girl! You are not responsible for other people's happiness, only your own. Be happy in whatever way works for you!
    1874 days ago
    Love the piggy tails and the red lips! Do what you need to do to be happy and to be YOU! You are the only you in the whole history of the world and that is something to celebrate.

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    1874 days ago
    We all have to face to reality of the scale after the holidays. We have a choice to let the number determine our emotions and spiral down hill or we look at all of who we are and determine to march on because we're worth the effort. Your attitude and choices rock. March forward! You are so capable of doing this and you will
    1874 days ago
  • 1EMMA2011
    Do what you gotta do! We're here for you. We like you!!

    1874 days ago
    Well attitude, schmatitude. I think your attitude is just fine! We HAVE to be who we;re meant to be. If we're not then who will be????

    Go for it! As for the dang lbs. that were lost then found again . . . well . . . they'll get lost again. You know the drill and can do it.

    1874 days ago
    trust me , many of them secretly admire you emoticon . and there's no way I'll step on a scale before a "perfect"month emoticon
    1874 days ago
    You go girl! Love the attitude! :) Thanks again for listening today. I'm proud of you!
    1874 days ago
  • CIPHER1971
    emoticon I raise a glass to many happy days of you being you, because you are Awesome
    1874 days ago
    I too have put on 13Lbs!! Started to feel pretty bad, and I LOVE your way of thinking!! So thank you for sharing! emoticon
    1874 days ago
    you can do it and know what i am exactly the same as you when i feel down i put on my brightest colours and purfume to make me feel better,don´t care what other people say either it works for your goals they are good goals emoticon emoticon
    1874 days ago
    You should totally be yourself!
    I have tried being someone else for many years and I ended up sad and 30lbs heavier!
    Now I laugh even with my jokes and I try to make MYSELF happy, not everybody else... I understood that people who love me are happy if I am, there is no need for extra effort.
    1874 days ago
    I wish you worked in my office! Too many of those stuffy folks here :-). You've got to be you, that's the only way to live...if others don't like it then stuff them LOL! No point in looking back at weight gained (I feel you though), just look forward. You'll lose that weight in no time!
    1874 days ago
    Do you RUN in those earrings?

    1874 days ago
    Keep on moving! You can get back to where you were in no time, as long as you are determined to move on it!
    1874 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    Sounds like a great plan for the day. I love the idea of earrings for pounds lost.

    We like you, and that's what matters.
    1874 days ago
  • LEB0401
    You got this!!!

    And being a true maintainer means riding out the highs and lows. Just because you hit a rough patch doesn't mean you lost your status :)
    1874 days ago
    Kitty, I can so relate to this today! Thanks for the reminder that being happy takes effort, today I will make that effort.

    You are brave! I too, gained weight over the holiday, but I can't put a public number to it, why I don't know. But this week has been good so far, tracking and exercising. Today I need to take two walks, one with each dog. Good for all involved.

    Jingle those hoops and have a fabulous day.
    1874 days ago
    Well WE like you and WE are all that counts today!

    SARCASTICS ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    1874 days ago
  • MICHELLE_391
    And so you will lose those pounds and work on that attitude. 13 lbs isn't that much, particularly for someone who works out as hard as you do.

    And of course, I recommend cooking more emoticon

    I'm having a hard time believing people generally don't like you. Is it simply your perception of yourself? Because really, you ARE a likable person. I like you. I like your bluntness and your sense of humor. And your style is magnificent!

    Go forth and be awesome!
    1875 days ago
    I wish you lived closer! You and I could be friends! LOL We could hang out in our "happy clothes" and make fun of the sad people (in a funny way, of course!) emoticon
    1875 days ago
    You'll have that weight back off in no time - I know it!
    1875 days ago
    You have one - and only one life to live. Live this life to make YOU happy. Those who don't like it never mattered in the end. We love you and accept you for who you are - not who we want you to be.

    Now, stop beating yourself up over this. Sure you gained some weight over the holidays. Wipe it off. Try to learn something from this. Get at it again. Now. Today. Don't hold off. You deserve this.

    And finally - rock those pig tails. Shine those lips. You not only look like a rock star - you are one.
    1875 days ago
    emoticon I am not woohoo ing the weight gain but the attitude. You go girl!

    I am still with you on the challenge.
    1875 days ago
    You can do it! I love your attitude, mouth filter or no! You've already lost all the weight your earrings represent, you can do it again.
    1875 days ago
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