Thursday, January 03, 2013
I have to confess Ė my BMI is back up to overweight. I put on 13 pounds over the holidays. I kept saying it was water or some other such nonsense. It is cookies and cinnamon rolls and hot cocoa and huge dinners and everything I know better than to do. I was BAD and now Iím paying for it with my new jeans feeling tight and a loss of my ďmaintenanceĒ status. I donít say this to berate myself, but it is just the fact of the matter.
Somehow knowing I was doing this to myself made my eating worse. Iím snarffing my meals so I donít ďhave to think about what Iím eatingĒ. Now how silly is that?!? I called myself ďchubbyĒ last night! That is not going to help. At least I caught it before it went into major negative self talk. Nope this all has to stop. And to stop it I have to be happy and positive with myself. So what to do?
Well, Iíve noticed changing oneís look can really affect attitude. On that note: My piggy tails are here to stay. Iíve put the black dye back in my hair. I pull out my red lipstick (I havenít worn lipstick in about 5 years)!!! I even bought eyeliner. Iím wearing the fun clothes Ė nothing sad. And I have 6 colored hoops in my ears! See each of those piercings represent 10 pounds Iíve lost. I may have found some Ė but I lost them once and I can do it again. My earrings are PROOF!
Iíve also decided that Iím going to have a happy day today if it kills someone! Believe it or not, most people donít like me. I tend to be blunt, I have absolutely no filter between my brain and mouth. I dress ďdifferentĒ (my happy top today has leather laces and eye-hole cut long sleeves). I have a warped sense of humor and an attitude that has attitude to spare. What does all this have to do with being a happy day? Happy day means being ME! See when I get down on myself (for anything), I start listening to all those people who donít like me. I stop talking because I might say the wrong thing. I dress in calm acceptable clothes. I stop making jokes and donít feel very entitled to my own attitude.
In the immortal words of Starbuck Ė FRACK that! Iím going to be me and if someone doesnít like it, they probably didnít like me anyway. So :P! I need to be silly and happy so I can get through this bump and come out feeling wonderful! I know I can. The jingling in my ears proves it!
To jump start my new year on the first I will achieve
3 planned meals
2 Motivational Articles
1 SparkPeople video