Thursday, January 03, 2013
I MADE myself get on the scale for the post holiday pig out! Well, up 6 lbs.
As with most, the new year brings the need for self reflection so I have gone back to my weigh in posts on my Sparkpage and my old blogs from a year ago. I still feel and remember the sentiments but also realize the difference I have made in my body. SUCCESS!?!? Yes, I am 6 lbs up from the holidays but still 5 lbs less than this same time last year! How? I feel the year has been such a roller coaster of healthy and unhealthy choices but its apparent that the better choices have outweighed the unhealthy. How can my mind get a grip that I have been successful at losing and even maintaining a 30-50 lb weightloss? Is it really MY story?
After reading back, I still feel like that struggling fat person but it is almost surreal that I am pretty much in the average weight range for months now. I have down-sized my whole entire wardrobe by two and half sizes for almost a year now. Is that my closet? Is that really me in the holiday pics that I actually want to look at?
I feel the the bloat and disgust of consciously overheating this holiday season but MY CLOTHES STILL FIT! My clothes? Are those size 12s really mine?
I think it's time to own it??? For myself and anyone else out there who is questioning or should I say doubting progress...not all choices will be the wisest but if the evidence is there then accept the proof that most of the choices have been good ones and the little things do count.
I guess it is the FEAR of backsliding, the threat of reverting back to old habits, which are highly possible if we don't stay focused. But today, my frame of mind says, " Job well done for 2012."
So to any fellow Sparkers who may have gone overboard for the holidays or even longer, go back a few months or even a year and check the evidence. If it says anything positive, OWN it and continue the journey. If it is not so positive, know that it possible. Just keep working to figure it out.
Happy New Year and Keep Sparking!
Special thanks to Spark friends who have guided and encouraged me to be able to choose and continue this journey.
May God Continue to Bless Us