Thursday, January 03, 2013
To say that I am hard on myself would not be an exaggeration. I have to admit that it has gone so far that if I have a goal that I mess up early, I will often just remove that from the long list so that I stay at 100 percent (or even fudge it a little and check off something I didn't Really do). This has ALREADY happened in 2013. One of my goals is to park far away from wherever I am going. So yesterday was cold and rainy. And I had two pre-teens in the car who feel that coats are not "attractive" wear for the mall. And since I have trimmed off my own fat I tend to get really chilled a little too easily. So I didn't even Think of that goal when we went to the mall yesterday and my whole plan was to park as close to a door (any door) that I could.
So, this morning I am checking off my "other goals" on my tracker and there is the "park far". Immediately I felt myself getting ready to check it off. After all, I walked about 2000 steps IN the mall. And ended the day over 15,000 steps thank you fitbit.
Then it occurred to me that one thing that has not served me well in my life is the idea that I cannot step even one tiny step out of line on Anything, and still be good enough. I need to add a goal. I need to add the goal "give yourself an opportunity to be better tomorrow, once a week". OK! What is this goal? This means I need to be rigorously honest and not check off some thing or other once a week. Why not every day??? OK come on, baby steps, right?
Happy new year, the first of my life where I allow myself to be human.